RESOLUTION 2008

2007 year will pass. Tomorow will be new year. New spirit, target and life. Hem, some of my 2007 resolution has fulfilled but now I need to recharge my self for next target. Ok guys and girls, here is my resolution:

1. MARRIED
2. MARRIED
3. MARRIED
4. My next novel will be launched before July 2008
5. The "Surat Cinta Saiful Malook" movie progress
6. Good career
7. Get back 10,000 US$ that lost from last business.
8. STUDY
9. Establish new business
10. New adventure in foreign country

GANBATTE KUDASAI!!!!

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FANS

Well, my old novel Surat Cinta Saiful Malook (SCSM) trying to rock Metro TV. Please let me know how many crews who read SCSM??? The funiest when I was in Finance Department for some reasons. Mbak Ria (=bunda) told me, "My nephew told me that a writer named of Risma works in Metro TV. Well, I didnt imagine its you".

I said, "Well its me........".

A woman with veil on another desk shouted, "What, are you Jasmine in Saiful Malook. Wuah............It was fabulous stories".

I smiled.

"Then hows Saiful Malook now?"

I said, "He's ok now".

She declared to everybody in finance room, "You should read that. It was touching stories, I was crying badly when read that".

Everybody asked about that. Mbak Auda on another desk asked, "How was Jasmine, Mas Fatah who's oldest in your office, and......".

I dazed, "What? how could? Did you?"

Mbak Auda, "Yeah I read your blog. As you, I'm a blogger".

Me, "Oh I see. What's your nick name?"

Mbak Auda, "Auda.........hem secreet".

In another ocassion I met with Mbak Ika (HRD). She told me that she read my blog. Wuahhhhhh.............It made me shy. Luckyly I didnt tell something bad there. I'm scare it will influence my work performance. Hahahha...............

Well, HRD Metro TV. Actually I wrote these at home by my PC or my mobile but. I just uploading in office. When I was not really hectic. So no worried about that.

Mbak Ika, I'll try to make some articles about 'CINLOK' as you requested. To my lovely readers, please let me know what do you want to know from me. I'll release here as soon as possible.

With love,

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SONNY

Sonny is my bestfriend here. Although we have so many dissimilarities, but I like to be his bestfriend. He loves to share his life story to me, even about his wild life. He never missied to tell me about his latest stories, although its only his disherat with a girl friend. Well, I always amazed with his stories. It was really out of mind, extraordinary wild. I guess. Until I asked to my self, "Where have I been?".

He was just laughing when looked at my confused face. He said, "Well, I know you are so artless. You didnt know anything. Well, this is real life girl".

I dazed when he told me about his wild storied that I just heard or quick read to a novel 'Jakarta Undercover'. When I tried to debate to him about Islamic concept. Again He just laughed and said, "Well, you could say that because you never known about real life. You've never tried that. Religion is an expression. Its not absolute case as you read from religion book. No body is perfect".

One night after shalat tahajud, I dreamed of him. I saw I kissed his hand before he left me to work, and he said "Bye my wife". GOSH....In the morning I text him.

".............Please never come to propose me!"

He replied, ".........Never crossed my mind to propose you. But you should remember that Human plans and GOD decides."

Ohhhh............again I said to him, "I apologize have insulted you".

But................I really cant accept him. He was too expert in wild life. And I'm still keep my principal that I only want to be kissed, hugged, etc by my husband future. Ya Allah, please guides me to the right way.......

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GOOD LADY ONLY FOR GOOD MAN

Long time didnt express something on my writing. Yeah, I was little bit hectic with my job. I thankful to ALLAH, finally I feel busy. But, damn I always didnt have time to write. My next novel still on my dream, while I was trying hard to finish it. But, Masha Allah.......it was pretty much difficult than I was thinking.

Now, I'm going to tell about my friend. I met with so many friends who could open my eyes about the real life. It made me to knock my forehead and said, "Risma.........where have you been?". I thought a life was only my small world. When many people lived in peace, followed the rules, practiced Islam, etc. I always didnt believe that 'Jakarta Undercover'-book was a true story. Astaghfirullahaladzim, it was true. Yeah, my assumption said that.

I met with some friends who agreed with sex before marriage. Some boys said that when they told LOVE to girls, they were not 100% loved them. Even, they didnt really understand the means of LOVE. They were just attracted physically to that girls. CRUSH. Then after they claimed that girls was their girl friends. They followed the rules of lover.

"Honey, I love you so much"...........the boy was looking at the girl's eyes then touch the girl's hand tenderly.

"Could you feel that?".............His sharp eyes broke the girl defence. The girl was getting romantic also. She would allow the boy to hug, kiss, touch her. And the last one the girl dedicated her 'special crown' or virginity to the boy.

Some friends said that pre-marriage sex was not a big deal. They did that because both of love on each other. Thats it. But the weird thing is; even a super-duper playboy dream a good lady to be his wife. They believe if a lady could save her virginity until her marriage. She must be could save her family's honour. Fiuhhhhhh!?!

Well.............Lady be good!!! So many men out there who's looking for you!!!

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METRO TV, I'm in Love

Its been almost 3 months, I spend my days in Metro TV. Three months ago my hectic days begined.Thanks GOD, finally I feel precious. Basically, I love the environment. I thought it would be a weird thing when you moved on to new place. Well, not really. I meet with so many exciting friend. My boss, is an energetic girl. She is a smart, ambitious, serious, and pretty (ofcourse). If you are a Metro TV audiences, especially for Metro Xinwen. Catherine Keng is one of Metro Xinwen Host, and She is also my boss. Actually her position is Assistant to GM Marketing. The GM is Desi Anwar (The famous Anchor from RCTI). But Ci Kath (We called it Cici coz she is a Chinese) almost handles all duties. I guess

My senior, Mas Murti is a funny guy. He is a fat guy, he has round face. I dont know why each I see him.I remember with Doraemon. He is not so fat but he has big belly. Mas Murti always could make us laughing without laughed. His face kept PLAIN. He is a kind guy. He is almost similar to BABEH ARMAND on SIG. Oh I miss you alot, Beh.

My friend Wahyu, First I thought he was a show up boy. But nop. He was just wanted to do something perfectly. Yeah, if I had same experience as him in marketing, I mean the real account excecutive. May be i would be same with him. AMBITIOUS to reach target. Few days behind, I was so close with him. He loved to talk about his dream; going to abroad and his challenges to be the 1st son in family.

My friend Ivan, oh my GOD. He is a game addict. Thats why I could understand why he was often 'blur'. May be his imagination still in game track. I have to remind him for many times before he move on. Although I was little bit forgetful, but I could remind another one (yipee!!!).

My friend Resty, she is admin secretary in my office. Well, I guess she has a lot of duty. Sometime she arrange meeting for her boss, did all administration regarding marketing. She is a masculine girl. Well, her rough life shaped her alot. She is tremendous girl with double personality. Sometimes she was a pretty girl, sometimes she was just like a tomboy.

My friend, Mas Miko. Well, I often join him to go home. He is a man with a kid and a wife. He loves her wife alot. Yeah as another newly-weed. I dont know why these few days he focused to search job for his wife. Almost all vacancies in governmental institution. Yeah........the honey moon has over. "You girl, dont be lazy! You should WORK for our life"

My friend Mas Fatah is an oldest. Actually, his age not too old. But I dont know why his face looks older than his age. He has 'professor' face. May be he loves to think difficult things.

Hanum, she graduated from IPB also. Well, sometimes I spent my days with her. She is pretty kind and simple. She is just like most girl. Guess what? yeah, she didnt like to be point of interest. Just be normally girl. May be she has flegmatic personality.

Agung, a genius guy from IPB. From his face, we could guess he was a Sumbawa guy. Hahahah.............black curly hair. His body covered with hair. I dont know why he is so addict with XXX video or picture. Although almost guys here are familiar with that things. But he was the top suspect. I suggested him to get marry soon. So he could free his 'feeling'

Mas Sofyan, oh my GODNESS. He is a super duper guy. He loves to share all gosip to people. Never ever open your secreet in front of him. Coz your secreet will beome the most popular gossip. One day, I had lunch with boys including him. I was extremely hungry that time, so I took more than one portion of rice. And he always told about that to all people in office. GOSH! But she is kind. Watch out you girls! This guys love to flirt with pretty girls. Although he has had a beautiful lady at home. Is every guy like that?

Mbak Christin, Well she is our driver when girls wanted to hang out. I dont think so she is really need money by working here. Heheheh.......I guess she has many cars. Each family member has a car. One for her, one for sister, one for mom, one for dad, one for maid, one for driver. But, she is very down to earth. She is a lovely person. She is a modist one. I love her performance.

Mbak Tari, She is trying hard to manage her body. Due to she will marry soon. Hahahah...........is a Javanese girl who try to get glory in Jakarta with all of dreams. I dont know why she was always to be a talking material. Hahhaha...........Mas Sofyan called her as one of member of 3 Diva (Pok Ati, Omas). Nop, she is very different with other divas. She is pretty, although she has big body. Body with sexy size ofcourse.

Mas Saiful, a bachelor (=bujang) from Padang. Hey girls, he is a man that you should get. He has house, good salary, single. I think he is the kindest guy here. I mean he was only smile when other guys compete to talk dirty things. May be he was a half 'IKHWAN'.

Mbak Fiza, She is a wonder woman. Her house in Bukit Cimanggu-Bogor. Everyday she should drive car from Cimanggu to Depok and dropped her baby there. Then took a train to Jakarta. From Jakarta station, she was still taking 'OJEK' (=rent motorcycle complete with the rider)to METRO TV. Thats why She had fixed schedule to go home. Coz if she was late, she would never get train to Depok/Bogor. She is a brain in research. She is also IPB Alumni.

Yusuf 'Ucup', Well he always paid attention to my performance. Thats why Mas Sofyan loved to teasing him. He was so pure. Not really pure as you thought. He was a typical of NATO (No Action Talk Only). It was not regarding of job. About youth life.......Could you imagine, even he didnt know why YAHOO sent him MAILER DAIMON mail. Hahahhaha...................He is a fresh graduate. Thats why He didnt know anything about work life. He was expecting high salary. He never felt enjoy here, he was always looking for other better job. Well, he was a new comer in work life. So just accepted with your salary.

Well, I love my recent life. Its a beautiful life to pass my single time before my marriage. Insha Allah, in the next couple months I'll marry. Hahahah, Metro TV uniform helped me alot to meet US Embassy. ALthough I was popular in Pakistan embassy, but in US embassy ........... I was an allien. But with this uniform........hem............I dont need to pay a lot of money for a paper work.

Mbak Win; hm... have you ever heard about Man from Venus, Woman from Mars. Well, and then where are you come from. You are too much strong to be a woman. "Never ever listen about other people comment. Just be your self!" Yeah this is one that I love from you. You dont care what people said and thought to you. You just felt confidence as you did. She is a cheerful girl. Lovely. Although, she seldom paid attention to stupid thing

I'm in LOVE.............

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Jasmine Was Dying

Yesterday when I arrived home. My youngest brother Aldi, told me that since afternoon Jasmine didnt do anything. Even She looked sick. Even She didnt swim as usual. She stopped to do anything since afternoon. Oh...what happened with my Brazilian Turtle?

I touched her and kissed her. Oh my God, I smell something fresh. It was just like perfume or Soap. I asked to Aldi, what had happened to Jasmine. What did he do to Jasmine.

Aldi answered it honestly, "I helped her to take shower. She was so stinky with fish smell. I used soap to clean her and her box".

I was shock, "Whuat?!? Why did you do?".

I was confused what should I do. So I just told Jasmine, "Min...please wake up. Please never give up! You should fight! COmeone...Franklin is waiting for you. WIll you leave us?".

Then I brought Jasmine to bathroom and put her on water. 1 minute...2....3....Yeah. Jasmine started to swim........Jasmine still lived. Horray........!?!

I thought she would die after that accident. Jasmine was dying after took shower with my brother.

Hahahha..........

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BALANCE ACCOUNT FOR SINGLE FIGHTER

Do you know how much balance account for single fighter especially girl??? The answer would be variable. But if we tried to make limitation only for girl who has just built their career after graduated from university but hasnt married yet (single fighter). The age would be between 22 to 27 or may be 30yrs old.

I conducted this research due to I had problem with my balance account. I often had balance account almost ZERO. Whuat?!? how could it happen? How a single who had good salary couldnt save any money while she had no husband and kids to support. Where was the money gone?

My salary was Rp X,X00,000 (excl. royalty if any, business if any, extra if any), 5 or 6 times than my office boy's salary in my previous company who had 2 kids and a wife. He lived in Depok. It means he should took a long journey before arrived to office. SLIPI to DEPOK would be reached for hundreds kilometres. The cheapest way was using economic train. It would take more than an hour. Well, if we used our logical mind we would say, "How could he support his family?"

I would not say that my money was gone with the wind, although I didnt understand. But I think, I was not a such of extravagant girl who loved to spend money without any consideration. Then where was it gone?

I used that for lunch in office, transportation, family leisure, beauty clinic, dentist (for behel treatment), accidental, charity, books, private leisure (hang out with friend, shopping, etc). And ofcourse the percentage for lunch&transportation was the least. Where should I minimize? I dont think so. All that I spent was worthy things.

I was still a single with my own money. I needed to hang out to maintain social life with other single. I need to buy shoes, dress, bag, etc to improve my performance. How could I interacted with other if my cloth was the same cloths when I was in university. I needed to buy books to improve my self. I needed to go to beauty clinic to treat my body. I needed to go to dentist to have behel treatment that I've started althought it was painful and very expensive, but i needed to improve my performance. I had to prepare some money to buy gift or souvenir for wedding invitation or prepared money if someone got accident. I had to help some people that needed my aid. All was worthy things.

Then I asked to all of my single fighter friends the same questions, "How much money did you save succesfully in the bank?"

They said, "ZERO...."

I also asked with someone who had salary more than me. They answered the same.

How could?!?

They said, "Well, its time to enjoy our life. If before we had no money for leisure due to we still depended on parents. Now its the right time to enjoy, before we get marry and have kids. After married, we will miss this time. How could we went for beauty treatment that needed hours and lot of money after married? If we had money, might be we had no free time. If we had free time might be we had no money".

One day my best friend asked me to lend her my money. The amount was so big. I was laughing to her and said, "Hahaha...how could you suspect me like that?".

Then I asked to other bestfriend to help her. But what she said, "My personal account was ZERO in balance. You may check to my saving books".

"How could?"

She repeated the same question, "How could?"

We both laughed.

But I still could find a single fighter who had big amount on their bank account. They were:

1. Rich girls who had rich parents. Their parents had prepared a lot of money in the bank with their name accounts and they could use that money anytime.
2. Actress or other professional.
3. or miserly girl, who didnt want to waste money. She always brought lunch from home or went home just for lunch. She wore same shoes-bag-dress since many years ago, or just borrowed that things from mom or her sisters, they looked older than their age. She never participated in charity or party. She always ignored invitations from friend to hang out. She prefered to copy book than bought it. She used her mom's cosmetics. She never went to beauty clinic. She didnt have family to share. Hahaha...what a pity you girl!
4. or She lived alone in the jungle.

Again I asked to ex-single fighter who has married and already had kids. Wow, she could manage money now. She could save money now. When I asked the tricks to her.

She said, "Well, I have no more time to go hang out with friends. My time full for my family. I always go home asap, no time for leisure with friends, no money gone. And I focus to my kids future. Now I use comparation for simple things. I prefer to buy milk than go to beauty clinic. SO just enjoy your time. You'll miss today, someday".

But when I asked how much saving to man (single fighter also). I could assume if;

1. They have a lot of saving, it means they are ready for marriage.
2. They have no saving, it means they are not ready for marriage.

But the theory couldnt be used if that man was a divorced from wealthy woman, actor, had millioner parents, etc.

Girls, please ask your boyfriends, "how much saving that they had?" to see their seriousness. Hahahaha....

P.S. Beloved, where should I start to saving?

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THE RIGHT TIME

"Today is the best gift from ALLAH. ALLAH gives you today, due to ALLAH knows its the right time. Just enjoy your life. Someday you'll miss today".

Mrs. Wiwid told me this good words for many times to advice me. Yeah it really energized me to continue my steps. Thanks Mrs. Wiwid.

Talk about 'the right time', we'll surely talk about destiny that had been decided by ALLAH. Although we've tried hard to get what have we dreamed, if the time has been right according to Allah's schedule we would never get it.

Last year, Babeh Armand lost hope. He was really impatient to get new job. He had applied since the begining of 2006. Yeah... for a man such him,looking for new job was not easy thing. Due to He had high position in previous company. Not much job vacancy for GM (I think so). He was very desperate on critical time. We all knew that he was insecure. Finally he got new job in the big US company, as soon after he resigned. The end of December 2006 he still got salary from SIG, January 2007 he got salary from recent company. Ofcourse with salary 'many times' from last salary.

Mr. Hafiz, my ex-manager. He applied many jobs, but no results. Until he felt extremely desperate due to he lived from pay check to pay check. Even He still needed debt to fulfill his cost living. He has 2kids and a wife who was full housewife. AFter He got sick and got medical treatment few days. Finally He got better job. On the right time (before he was getting crazy), he got job.

Mr. Denny, my ex-co worker (SIODP). After graduated from Magister Management UI, He desired to get marry soon. He applied some jobs. When he got announcement that SIG accepted him as their employee (MT), he was very happy. Although he was still hoping with a sharia bank that he had applied before (and also had passed last tests). Actually he prefered Sharia Bank than in SIG, due to he was a typical of good moslem. But Sharia Bank called him a day after he accepted SIG as the 1st career. First he felt disapointer, but behind he understood why Allah choose that for him. The salary at SIG almost twice than in SIG Bank. He thought, may be Allah knew that he needed alot of money to marry. He was getting enjoyed with new job in SIG. But after 4 months, He failed to continue his job in SIG. He was terriby disapointed. He couldnt imagine about the future life. He was really confused due to in the next couple month he would marry.

I tried to support him with my magic words, "Dont worry after this Allah prepared the better things. Never give up!!! Keep your intention to marry!".

Yeah, as soon after he got out from SIG. He got new job in logistic company which applied Islamic values on their business. It was really suitable for him. And he married, even his wife has been pregnant. Yeah on the right time, Allah gave him the best thing that he hadnt imagined before.

About my friend FINA who had been waiting for 8 years to marry. Although he had boy friend and family always offered her with their choice. FINA thought it would be longer due to the boy was not accepted by her family. But finally she married on age 30yrs old, the boy 34yrs old. May be it was the right time for them to marry.

About my friend Widi, she made dua for her husband future who could be her imam few years behind, but she focused on marriage 2 yrs behind. Even he made this year as her target year to marry. She decided to take new challenge. She resigned from previous job and moved to Sharia Bank. Then Allah sent her a man. That guy was her co-worker in previous office. They will marry 8th August 2007. That guy was not the 1st guy who proposed her, before they were 2. But they were still family. So this guy was the 1st outsider who came to her house for marriage's proposal. Yup, its the right time for Widi.

Two years ago, i decided to work in SIG due to my mom felt it was good for me. They interviewed me on Friday. It was the only interview schedule on Friday from many interview schedule. My mom always thinking that my lucky day is Friday, due to I was born on Friday. Friday is Islamic special day. And it was really my perfect time. When I was on SIG, I got so many surprises that couldnt measure by money. My books was launched here, I was on METRO TV& RRI radio for live interview, became popular, I met my magic moment there.

Until 2006, I felt I was in comfort zone. I thought it was my time to marry when I met the first guy who came to propose me islamically when I was ready enough to marry. He was an US. It mean we would need a lot of things to do. But I was not thinking about that last year. I was just thinking, I wanted to have husband and got out from this comfort zone. I thought living in abroad would be challenging. Even I'd planned to continue my MBA.

That time I was so sad and asked ALLAH why the plan was not going well. I was desperate, not only I was stuck in my job but also my marriage planning. Then my guardian angel came and that was my magic moment to made own business. Yeah for a while I could forget all the things that made me dizzy. But I didnt know why the business was not going well. I was getting confused. Then I applied job to 130 companies.

I made dua to ALLAH, "Ya ALLAH, dont let me stuck on this situation. No challenges, and no hubby. I'm afraid it would let me far away from you. Please let me out from this situation. If he is really my husband future, give me strong and patient to pass this. But please I dont want to stuck on this situation. The time is longer than the fact. I need something that make me busy. If I did busy thing, I could pass year easyly without feel as I was in waiting. I want to be busy girl before I have kids".

and I got good news. Metro TV was the answer of my dua. Why it came late? no, ofcourse not. Its the right time. and when I tried to find aswer why it happened. I got the answer. May be he will be my IMAM. Why?

1. I have passed professional time as soon after graduated from university at SIG.
2. I'm a novelist and have many readers who love me. Its one of many proof that ALLAH loves me, may be I havent had any husband who loves me but many people loves me.
3. Allah tried to inspire me, what should I do someday if i have to stay in abroad with kids. I could get money without leave house by writing.
4. Allah answered my dreams when I was kid to be popular.
5. I got my own money for fun and charity. I could do anything that I want. I could have beauty clinic. May be I couldnt have that chance after I married, because my focus will be for family. Allah gave me time to prepare my self (hehehe...)
6. By the time I was getting mature enough. I learned much how to manage my self. I was getting expert in cooking (I think so). I was not so egoist as before. I learned how to be patient and plan for everything totally.
7. I've learned that marriage is not the final stage. Its the begining of next life chapters. We'll meet many joys, sadness, laughing, crying, etc. I thought, wedding party is not necessary.
8. I've learned how to love someone for the sake of ALLAH. The only person who introduced me with this kind of love was my candidate. Even I was getting understand the meaning of Ikhlas, "If he was not mine may be ALLAH has prepared better guy for me....".
9. I've forgotton my past, and no place for another man except my hubby. Hehehe...although I had no real experiences in love before.
10. I learned how to make business. I met with some relation. Oneday, I'll be stronger in business to help my hubby.
11. I was getting understand about 'Prenuptial Wedding'. I learned much from Kompas Community regards Indonesian who lived in abroad or married with foreigner. I couldnt imagine if I married last year with lack of information.
12. I learned much about worldwide and many probabilities if I had to live in different countries, cultures, etc.
13. I have just known that to stay in US. US government usually checked our credit record. Hem, I think I'm succesfully maintain my credit record by using ANZ & Manhattan Credit Card. I think bank is getting in love with my performance. I used credit card as debit card.
14. I managed my network. I hope I could work in abroad. So I tried to meet with so many challenging works.
15. My recent work is the place that let me have access with International network. I hope i could work in VOA.
16. If before I depended on my spiritual advisor Widi, due to I had plenty time to disturb her. When I got new job, she married. Might be Allah knew that I would not have time to disturb her again on this job.
17. I have had a lot things to tell to my kids what have I done before I marry and have kids. And my kids will proudly tell every people whom they know, "My mom is best mom. She was a bachelor, novelist, enterpreuner, worked in shipping, worked on TV, good in cooking, pretty, kind, good moslemah, etc. My dad found her in Indonesia. My mom had reached most of her dreams before she married with my dad. and my dad is one of her dream. I'm surely they'll be good partner. They both of big dreamer. I'm proud heresitate their spirit. I want to be like them.......bla...bla...bla..."
18. bla...bla...bla...

I couldnt counting anymore. Because so much blessings that has ALLAH given to me. ALHAMDULILLAH, thanks to ALLAH.

This time I would to tell to all people who feel desperate, stuck, fail, God is not fair, etc.

"Dont worry be happy about your life. whether now you feel bad, desperate, fail, sad, miserable, etc. May be the right time hasnt come. By the time, all will be changed with good things, succesful, joys. Just do the best and wait until the right time is coming. Only ALLAH who knows when will the right time coming. Believe me, the right time will never come late. Enjoy your time!"

رَبَّنَا وَلاَ تُحَمِّلْنَا مَا لاَ طَاقَةَ لَنَا بِهِ

Q.S Albaqarah (2:286) "........Our Lord do not impose upon us that which we have not the strength to bear......"

PS. I love you for the sake of ALLAH

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Gold Plated Masjid

This is the glorious symbol of Indonesia. Well, who said Indonesia poor country? Although 1 US$ = Rp 9,400, and many people in hunger here. But MASJID DIAN AL MAHRI was built in Indonesia. COuld you imagine how much it cost???

This gold-plated dome mosque is one of the most beautiful mosque in the Southeast Asian. It is located in Jalan Nurhasim, Meruyung, Limo-Depok. It has 5 gold-plated domes with the largest has 16 meters diameter and 25 meters height. This mosque stands in 100 hectare area meanwhile the mosque itself has 8.000 square meters area.

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REUNION & BRAZILIAN TURTLES

In University, I had 5 best friends. Name was Ariyanah, Irma, DJ, Dewi and Widi. We were best friends, even until now we are still have good relationship. Even their name also quoted in my 1st novel 'Surat Cinta Saiful Malook'.

Ariyanah was a tom boy (girl with masculine side hehehe...). Although she wore long heejab, but she was still funky. Sanguinist-Choleric. Sundanese girl.

Irma was the most diligent girl.She was perfect melancholic, she had scheduled life. She was the best graduated among us. She wore long heejab and she was so feminine. When we had to visit BADUY tribe in Banten, she kept wearing long skirt when we were hiking on the mountain. She never forgot to wear Umbrella, even in mountain. She was native Betawi.

DJ was the most tom boy. She wore short heejab. She was allergic with long skirt. She was coming from North SUmatera, with Batak accent. Her motto hard work-hard play.

Dewi was normal girl. She was dilligent. She wore long heejab. She was flegmatics person.

Widi was sanguinist-melancholic, feminine girl, active in many organization, Islamic teacher, etc. She bought UMI magazine, while we were still interested to ANNIDA

I was a big dreamer girl, enthusiastic, sanguinist-melancholic, loved to be point of interest, unique, etc.

And after 2.5 years we graduated from University, finally for the 1st time we had complete gathering on 16 - 17 August 2007. We spent a whole night&day together.

Ariyanah is working as call centre supervisor at Indosat (Telecommunication Company)

Irma works as senior call centre at Citibank

DJ works as call centre at Citibank (retention)

Dewi is an elementary teacher.

Widi is working in Sharia Bank (MUAMALAT).

That time we decided to keep turtles as our pet; 3 males (Ucok, Franklin, Takeshi) & 3 females (Nyai, Jasmine, Neng). They were cute brazilian turtles. Why we choosed turtles? because turtle has long age. It could live until hundred years. We wished our friendship will be everlasting till die do us part. Next meeting we will have conversation topic regards turtles.

DJ got UCOK and will prepare UCOK as husband for NENG (Widi). I got Jasmine for Franklin (Irma). Nyai belongs to Dewi for Takeshi (Ariyanah).

Innalillahi wainna ilaihi raaji'un. NYAI died at 21st August 2007. Takeshi lost his wife future.

P.S. Dewi how could you?!?

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LIFE COMPANION

Being a single on the age above 25 for a girl will add some problem that really makes stress for a girl. Yeah, actually its not only happen to girls but also boys, especially in Indonesia (or in Eastern Countries). They will meet with standardized question for that age, "When will you marry?". May be the 1st question will not really annoyed, but if the same questions must be repeated for many times and the questions also be added by comments,

"Why dont you marry?"

"Havent you met with the chosen prince?"

"Dont be choosy! If you dont want to spend a whole of life alone"

"Dont you want as your friends who have babies?"

"Career, money will not buy truly happiness"

bla...bla...bla...that made our (single community) ears became HOT

How could they asked such that? I dont think so its a part of attention (hehehhe....). Do you need the answer for all of that? Well, here I try to represent my 'single' friends.

If we havent married not because of we ignored the marriage, too much choosy, satisfied with our career in single status, etc. We havent married yet, because Allah thought that it is not the good time. Allah has prepared the prince, but it is not the right time to engage with marriage (on Allah's eyes). May be, Allah is trying to prepare us to be ready. If we havent accepted any proposal, not because we were too choosy. But they were not the prince that ALLAH prepared for us.

Oneday I asked to my friend who married last 2 months. She married on 30th yrs old with a man that she knew 9yrs ago.

I said to her, "If he finally be yours, why didnt you married last 9yrs ago. or at least you could marry 8yrs ago with him".

SHe answered, "How could I know he was mine. Although he was my best friend, but I thought it was impossible to marry with him. I thought I would marry with man that was proposed by my parents. Even the last minutes before I married with him, my mom still tried to persuade me".

"Then how could you know, he was your prince?"

She answered, "Many times did salat Istikharah finally I decided him".

From that case we know that the problem why that girl havent married was not because of She hadnt met the chosen prince. She had met with the chosen prince many years ago. But if ALLAH had decided the timing of their marriage, they couldnt married before the time.

I have another friend. She is my best friend Widi. She is also my spiritual advisor. When I was down, she was always behind me to support. So many tears and laughing that she saw from me. Many months ago, when both of us talked about life companion that hadnt come yet. Both of us missed a man that would be our Imam.

The conversations would be about:

"Why Allah hasnt sent a prince to us when we thought ready enough to welcome? A prince that could be our Imam to guide us to JANNAH"

"Was he going ashtray? should we gave our complete address to Allah?".

"I've done salatul hajat, was not enough?"

bla...bla...bla...

When I felt desperate, I called her just to express my feeling. And she would listen me patiently. And she was always adviced me to keep patient. She reminded me that Allah was not deaf, sleeping, etc. ALLAH listened our dua, appreciated our good efforts. Allah answered our prayer on 3 ways; If HE answered YES, the prayer would be granted soon. HE say NO, and HE would change with better things. HE say WAIT until the right time. Again Widi told me that might be the time was not right.

That time WIDI was working on IT company. She had co-worker Mr. X. Mr. X was also looking for wife. Widi introduced Mr. X to me. She desired to be mediator between me and Mr. X. But I ignored from the 1st. Even I lied to him that I had married with someone. Mr. X. stopped contact me.

Widi was a typical of good moslemah. She had never had special relationship with a man. She hold Islamic way, not to have BF outside marriage. Widi also followed the sunnah. She was joined Islamic party. She used her weekend to teach Islam. Although she was perfect, she had never behaved that she was the best. She was down-earth girl. Even, She never forced me to follow her way. She didnt meet any problem with my outstanding behaviour. She always supported me.

She said, "Be patient, Risma. You are good girl, Insha Allah will only get good man. Keep praying. Allah never sleep".

This year Widi is working in Sharia Bank. Finally her marriage is getting closer. WIthin 3 weeks, she would marry with Mr. X. Mr. X proposed her last week. Without any harmful relationship. Widi has never imagined, finally the chosen prince would be Mr. X. Mr. X was not ideal man for Widi. Even in my eyes, Mr. X was nothing for Widi. Widi was too perfect for Mr. X.

Yeah, the life companion is not only about the chosen prince who will be our Imam. Although we've met him few years ago, if the timing was not right. The marriage would never happened. Now the right time for them, Widi & Mr. X will marry 8th AUgust 2007, Insha Allah. May Allah bless their marriage.

P.S. Can I still disturb u, Wid?

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MAAK HET LEVEN NIET MOELIJKER DAN HET AL IS

"Slow down baby, take it easy and let it flow..."

The song lyrics from SHE (Indonesian girl band) reminded me with the words "Maak Het Leven Niet Moelijker Dan Het Al Is" which means of "Dont make this difficult life more difficult". Take it easy and let it flow. Does it really work for all occasions? not really. Well, I guarantee if you use this motto all the time. You'll never bother whatever that happens to you. Because you have no worry cant get what you want. Just let it flow...or just let it gone with the wind. 'GITU AJA KOK REPOT".

But I'm pretty sure, you'll stuck in your condition. Just take the destiny without trying to get better than before. All has been decided by ALLAH, so just accept it as your destiny. Hayaa....how could you say like that?

As long as I know, there are 2 types of destiny; QADHA and QADAR. QADHA is destiny that couldnt be changed by human, because it has been decided by ALLAH strictly e.g. birth, death and life partner. QADAR is choice's destiny. Allah has decided it with alternatives, e.g. we could be rich if we tried hard to get it, we could get good marks in subject if we studied hard. Life is choice. You could get whatever you want if you try to get it. You are what you think all day long.

I always thinking that the most reason why some people are fail or success in their life is MIND. Either its subsconscious or conscious mind. Yeah its true. I have funny story but it was a fact.

Tini was an office girl who worked in my previous company (SIG). I liked that woman. She was kind, honest, and so innocent. Her salary below 70 US$ per month, after discount. She was an outsource employee. So she didnt have any renumerations as direct employee could get. If Tini was an office girl (maid in office), her husband (NOPI) was a cleaning service employee in my company. He was also an outsource employee (KMA Company).

One day, our company finished the contract with KMA COmpany. Our company changed with ISS Company (Cleaning Service Company). NOPI lost his job. He was dying, due to he was an uneducated person. Even NOPI didnt have any elementary certificate. TINI with salary below 70 US$ should handle NOPI and her 5 months baby. Masha Allah, it was impossible. TINI asked me job references.

I asked her "what kind job that NOPI wanted?".

She answered, "Anykind about cleaning services. Because NOPI only had experiences in cleaning service for many years".

I admitted with his education background, almost impossible to get new job in outsourcing company. They need at least high school graduated. and NOPI was an uneducated person. But I gave her all address that I knew to apply new job.

Another week, I asked her, "Hows the result?"

She said, "none"

I asked, "How many application has he sent?"

She said, "two".

GOSH, its unworthy compare with my efforts to get new job by applying 130 good companies before I got this new job. Or compare with my ex-boss, a Dutch who got overseas MBA title with last job as GM. He applied 140 good companies before He got very good position in DUPONT.

But I said her, "dont worry as soon as possible, just apply as much as he could do!"

oneday my Indian friend, He is my business partner who has big Indian Resto in Jakarta asked me two employees. He needed chef assistant. And I soonly suggested NOPI. He trusted me, so he agreed with my suggestion. He promised to make some interview with NOPI asap.

I informed that to TINI. TINI informed to NOPI asap. But could you imagine what NOPI said? He said that He couldnt take that challenges due to he has no experiences in resto, he just simply wanted to get another cleaning service challenges due to he had only this experiences.

I shocked, "WHAT?!?"

Before I was getting angry, I said to him, "What are you trying to show up with your lack? Why dont you take that job. Its halaal and even you'll get better status there also better income. Do you know that might be I'm 100 times better than you, but I still needed to apply 130 companies and I havent got any responds. And do you know my ex-boss? before he got his job, he should applied to 140 companies. He graduated from overseas and hold MBA title. He could speak many languages better. And now, you tried to ignore good opportunity without some efforts just because you afraid couldnt handle it. Are you nuts? Then what will you do to support your family? How could u get money?". Then I was silent.

Next day, NOPI really came to that resto. He accepted that job. Yipee.........!!!

It was example of QADAR. Could you imagine Ih He didnt take that challenge? May be He would stuck as unemployment. Allah has prepared 2 choices for him. Take the challenge to work as chef Asistant or keep being unemployment until he get another job that would take long time. And on that destiny, ALLAH asked me to be agent.

I have another stories that will open your mind how subsconcious mind worked in your future life. Since kid, I loved to give my signature on my friends book. Until my friends were getting bother with me. I was disturbing alot them.

WHen they complained with my behaviour, I just said that one day I would be famous girl and all people would ask me to sign their books. Not only once time I said that, but for many times for sure. I said that with no doubt, although I didnt know what what would happen in the future.

And what happened after years. The dream came true. Finally, my signature has value. Now my friends and other readers are asking for my signature on their SCSM novel.

I said to my friends, "Well, now you are really need my signature. In the past you felt I disturbed you alot by signing your book".

My friends only said, "Well, your dream came true". With their smiles.

Since kid, I love to act as I was on TV and having some interview with journalist. Many years I prepared my self to be ready if someday I was invited to have live interview on TV and radio. I was acting in front of mirror, spoke as I was in formal interview.

And the dream came true. I was really invited by TV & radio for live interview. Masha Allah...

And many things that happens now are coming from DREAM. I just dreaming, trying and praying and all happens. Even some of better than I'd dreamed before. Alhamdulillah.........

I hate if someone told :

"I'm the most miserable people in the world".

"Allah has created me as poor and just accepted it as destiny".

" I cant afford to get it. Its impossible for me".

" Why should we study hard, if no job opportunity".

" Looking for job is difficult think if we dont have any references".

bla...bla...bla...

Stop it!!! If you are a moslem, better you check this verses

إِنَّ اللّهَ لاَيُغَيِّرُ مَا بِقَوْمٍ حَتَّى يُغَيِّرُواْ مَا بِأَنْفُسِهِمْ

Qs. Ar Ra'd (13:11) "surely Allah does not change the condition of a people until they change their own condition"

Yeah, LIFE is CHOICE. Allah still gives you the choice, except Birth, death and life companion. The result will depend on your efforts. ALthough the result is not depend on your dream, Allah has appreciate it. Nothing useless. even Allah will give you better than you want or change it with other joy. BELIEVE that!!!

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FINALLY

Masha Allah, finally I reach my dream.

Last week METRO TV called me for signing contract.

3rd September 2007, I'll working on METRO TV.

Yiipeee.........!!!

I couldnt imagine it before.

Last year they invited me to be their guest star for Breakfast Club, regarding my novel "SURAT CINTA SAIFUL MALOOK".

Now, I'm being a part of their team.

Well, I couldnt wait to work in new place.

And I'll be sure my another novel will coming out from that place.

Alhamdulillah....

C U There!

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Ya Allah, I really need you.

I know you listen all of my prayers.

But this time I really need 'miracles'.

The way out from here.

Ya Allah, you know me better than me.

Please...!!!

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Its a LOVE's STORY

Once upon a time, there were abstract objects that stayed in Small Island; LOVE, sadness, happiness, wealthy, beauty and etc. They lived together. However one day, storms came to the Small Island and sea water suddenly traveled by and sank the island.

All the Islanders tried to escape as soon as possible. LOVE really confused due to it could not swim and didn’t have the boat. LOVE stood in the coastal bank tried to look for help. In the meantime water increasingly rose wetted LOVE’s feet.

In the next couple minutes, LOVE saw ‘wealthy’ was paddling the boat.

“wealthy! wealthy!! help me please!!!”, LOVE shouted.

The wealthy said, “Ow! Sorry……..LOVE. I couldn’t bring you up if I don’t want this boat sank. Moreover there are no more places for you in my boat”. Then wealthy left LOVE alone quickly.

LOVE was very sad, but afterwards LOVE saw Happiness was coming through by boat.

“ Happiness…happiness! Please help me! “, shouted LOVE. But Happiness was too happy because he found the boat so it couldn’t hear LOVE's shouting. Now the water became as high as LOVE’s waist. LOVE was increasingly panicked.

Then LOVE saw the beauty was paddling its pretty boat.

“Beauty…beauty…please bring me up to your pretty boat!”, shouted LOVE.

“ NO WAY!!! Oh lOVE you are too wet and dirty. I worried you’ll contaminate my pretty boat”, Beauty answered.

It was really shocked LOVE. LOVE was very sad. LOVE began to cry sobbingly.

Meanwhile, LOVE saw the sadness came. “Sadness…sadness…please let me join with you there!”.

The sadness said, “ Sorry LOVE. I’m too sad right now. I want to be alone”. Sadness left LOVE. All went to nearest island with their boats. LOVE was the only on that island. LOVE lost hope.

LOVE felt water increasingly and would sink it.

At the critical time, suddenly LOVE heard the voice.
”LOVE…come on rose to my boat quickly!!!”.

LOVE turned out to the side of the voice came and rose to the boat quickly before the water sank it. In the closest island, the LOVE descended and the boat went as soon as possible. In the mean time, LOVE just realized that LOVE didn’t know who had helped.

LOVE immediately asked to the islander.

“It was TIME”, said the occupants.

“But why did TIME rescue me? Even my friends who recognized me well didn’t want to help me to pass the storms”, asked LOVE.

The occupants said, “because ONLY TIME THAT KNOWS HOW MUCH VALUES OF LOVE?”

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GIRL's SIGN

If i dont call you
[ Its because im waiting for you to call me ]

When i walk away from you mad
[ Follow me ]

When i stare at your mouth
[ Kiss me ]

When i push you or hit you
[ Grab me and dont let go ]

When i start cussing at you
[ Kiss me and tell me you love me ]

When im quiet
[ Ask me whats wrong ]

When i ignore you
[ Give me your attention ]

When i pull away
[ Pull me back ]

When you see me at my worst
[ Tell me im beautiful ]

When you see me start crying
[ Hold me and tell me everything will be alright ]

When you see me walking
[ Sneak up and hug my waist from behind ]

When im scared
[ Protect me ]

When i lay my head on your shoulder
[ Tilt my head up and kiss me ]

When i grab at your hands
[ Hold mine and play with my fingers ]

When i tease you
[ Tease me back and make me laugh ]

When i dont answer for a long time
[ reassure me that everything is okay ]

When i look at you with doubt
[ Back yourself up ]

When i say that i like you
[ I really do more than you could
understand ]

When i bump into you
[ bump into me back and make me laugh]

When i tell you a secret
[ keep it safe and untold]

When i look at you in your eyes
[ dont look away until i do]

When i miss you
[ im hurting inside ]

When you break my heart
[ the pain never really goes away.. ]

When i say its over
[ i still want you to be mine ]

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Good bye RASYID...!

Rasyid was a boy of Mbak Wiwit( my co-worker). His destiny made him to leave Risyad (his twin brother), mom & daddy. Due to some problem, Mbak WIwid had to give birth in 30th Weeks. The baby would be premature. The organ might be still incomplete. Risyad was strong enough than Rasyid.

Now Rasyid is still undersupervised doctor at RS. Bunda. He is staying inside incubator. May Allah, keep him!

P.S. Mbak Wiwit & husband. Be patient! Insha Allah Risyad will be better soon

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ONE. Give people more than the expect and do it cheerfully.

TWO. Marry a man/woman you love to talk to. As you get older, their conversational skills will be as important as any other.

THREE. Don't believe all you hear, spend all you have or sleep all you want.

FOUR. When you say, "I love you," mean it.

FIVE. When you say, "I'm sorry," look the person in the eye.

SIX.. Be engaged at least six months before you get married.

SEVEN. Believe in love at first sight.

EIGHT. Never laugh at anyone's dream. People who don't have dreams don't have much.

NINE. Love deeply and passionately. You might get hurt but it's the only way to live life completely.

TEN. In disagreements, fight fairly. No name calling.

ELEVEN. Don't judge people by their relatives.

TWELVE. Talk slowly but think quickly.

THIRTEEN. When someone asks you a question you don't want to answer, smile and ask, "Why do you want to know?"

FOURTEEN. Remember that great love and great achievements involve great risk.

FIFTEEN. Say "Rahimakallah" when you hear someone sneeze.

SIXTEEN. When you lose, don't lose the lesson .

SEVENTEEN. Remember the three R's: Respect for self; Respect for others; and Responsibility for all your actions.

EIGHTEEN. Don't let a little dispute injure a great friendship.

NINETEEN. When you realize you've made a mistake, take immediate steps to correct it.

TWENTY. Smile when picking up the phone. The caller will hear it in your voice.

TWENTY-ONE. Spend some time alone.
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I DEADLY YEARN MY PAST...

Do you ever miss your past? About life episodes that has gone with the time. Some life experiences that you ignored but now you miss all of that. About your stupidity, enemies, friends, special friends, ptoblems, etc.

Ah now I'm missing some of them;

• My college time, when I was absent and asked my best friend to signing my presence list.
• My college time, when I booked the strategic place to listen lecturer.
• When I was taking bus Ciputat-Bogor and took a look of Parung views. The centre of prostitution. How was the society accepting prostitussion as normal profession. When I saw kids went home from masjid with their veil and Quran and kissed their mom's hand. Their mom wore sexy dress, made up herself to wait guest.
• Reading in campus library.
• Chatting with Saiful Malook
• Eating soto mie with Widi, DJ, Irma, Dewi, and Ari. Meanwhile we were dreaming about our bright future.
• Enjoyed my absent time with Sumiyati.
• My life as a teacher in bilingual pre-school e.g. : teaching, making display, conversation on lunch, singing, managed stage performance, etc.
• Lilis (my smartest student), Dinda (my strangest student), etc...
• My school principal who paid me Rp 1,050,000 for the 1st.
• Lanny, Ardia, Ida, bu Kukun, Mbak Titin, Bu Inti all of Cordova member...
• Embassy of Pakistan's family
• Pak Dedi Budiman Hakim, my theses councelor
• KKN at BOJONG CAE ; Abang, Fian, DJ, Desi, the villagers, ustad keparat, Dicky an other teams
• My admirers
• my relatives who had passed away
• Mas Surya, someone who gave me book "The Power of Unconscious Mind".
• etc

I miss all people who had made my life wonderful and colorful....But I dont want to repeat my time. A wise lady told me, "Whatever that happens now is the best. Allah gives that because HE sure that is best for you now. So why bother?"

Yeah.........I'm enjoying my time. Alhamdulillah...

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BEHEL

Its a hot gossip. Its been almost 3 months I wear BEHEL. Do you know whats the mean of BEHEL? Its teeth hedge. Iron wire, iron bracket and colorful rubber. It is one of orthopedic treatment to tidy the teeth up. My dentist suggested me to wear behel. I have disorder teeth, due to my small jaw. First I had never consider to wear that. It costs a lot of money. The price equal to motorcycle price. And it will be another cost each month for treatment. Hem........but I consider the result after 2 years. I will have beautiful teeth. Although most of my friends said that I have no problem with my teeth. But I felt I have to do it now before late.

Yeah...my life with behel has begined. Masha ALLAH, it was hurt. The dentist should pulled 4 teeths out. And I cant eat easyly with my wire & bracket. PAINFUL. Now I'm going to realize that beauty is painful.

BEHEL is not only a treatment. But an accessories. If you meet me, you'll see that my rubber color is suitable with my dress. Hehhe......keep FUNKY. I dont feel I'm such of BETTY LAFEA. I'm getting more funky as before with my behel (NARCIST......).

See you!!!

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CATERING

Our 1st catering order on 2nd June 2007 In Bogor. It was a wedding party of Haji Roesli's daughter. Seemed he was an executive member of PPP. The guests were some important person such as Governor of Jakarta Sutiyoso, Shihab, member of legislative board, etc. After this we got other orders. Ameen.

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REST IN PEACE

Name was FANNY. She was a little girl who lived near my house. She was raised up by traditonal family called BETAWI (a native of Jakarta). Actually, her family was a land owner. But by the time after her grand pa passed away. She was just a little girl from a simple BETAWI's family. Her mom is a teacher of Islamic Private School and her dad is an employee of NGO.

Three months behind, She was lying down in hospital. Doctor team on Fatmawati Hospital (Government hospital in South Jakarta) diagnosed that she had heart attack. After a month she was treated by hospital then finally she went home. But She couldnt playing as before. She had to take a rest.

After a week, again her healthy dropped. She was sent to centre hospital (RSCM). And the doctor said, she not only had heart disease but also LEVER and LEUKIMIA. Masha ALLAH. And day by day, she had to spend her life on bed under doctor & paramedic supervised. Her family had spent a lot of money for her. But we were her neighbor also helped her financially. Her mom's student, co worker and her dad's collegues. But the money was too much expensive. And I was sure that her parents also asked some helps for loan.

FANNY got her 1st chemotherapy. But everyday, she should got medicines and special injection. The doctor said, Fanny should be treated for 20 years to get well as before. Masha ALLAH, I couldnt imagine how much money should they paid for FANNY. There was a medicine with cost 1.8 million rupiahs per cc. What about pills, tablets, injections, hospital room, infus, etc???

Few days ago, Fanny asked her parents to bring all of her pictures to hospital. She asked permission to cut all of her picture by scissor. She begged with tears. Her parents finally allowed her to cut all of her documentation. Yeah, she didnt want her family became sad when she left the world forever.

Yesterday (18th June 2007), she passed away at 3 pm. Hen I came there, I saw that she had beautiful face. I imagined her as a fairy of paradise. She looked happy entering her new life.

ALLAH called her, because HE didnt want to see her miserable any longer. May be FANNY didnt want to be burden for her family. The cost for her 3 months was too expensive, and had made her family bancrupt. What about 20 years? No........Fanny was prefer to follow her angel. She went to a better place in Jannah. She didnt want to leave any miserable anymore to her beloved family.

Bye FANNY. We will always remember how pretty, funny and smart you were. I love you. Pass my best regards to your new friends.

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LOST???

One thing that made me feel not good few weeks behind, that I was getting realize that I was going to bancruptcy. I was afraid of being miserable. But when I cried to admid that I had given up, I worried that I have been COWARD. As long as I remember, I'm a bachelor of Agribusiness. I got A for business subjects. I'd never faced difficult to answer ESSAY. But why I was empty when I had to answer the reality. Uffhhhhh..........Masha Allah.

I suddenly realize that I have been wasting 6000 US$. But what have I gotten? I got loss, valuable experiences, spirit, soul, dynamic of business flow. I'd never gotten that issues on my SUBJECTS when I was still registered as a student of Agribusiness on Bogor Agricultural University.

Thanks to KOTLER who has taught me that product, price, place, promotion are the important things that a marketer (enterpreuner) should understand. But...why we just understand without do something. Hehehe....

Thanks to my friends FITRIA MOORCY who has pushed me alot to recognize my brand image. Hahahha....and I'm sure that she still didnt understand why I just cried when answer her simple question. Hahahahha.....I was lil' bit depressed....

But wallahi, I have to keep faith due to someone has trusted me...

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SCSM on PRO 2 FM (105.1 FM)

My publisher told me to come for live interview on Radio PRO 2 FM regarding "Surat Cinta Saiful Malook". So all the readers, admires, anyone. Please stay tune on PRO 2 FM 3 June 2007 at 4.30 pm. I will be there, Insha ALLAH.

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HELLO....!!!

Its been more than a month, I didnt write something here. There were so many stories that happened. Topsy turvy, up and down, happy and sad.

Its all about business progress. Finally I got catering order for wedding party, after long time lost hopes. I hope this is good sign for my progress.

Even this week, I almost worried cant pay my employees. I had no cash money. Almost money has been investing to equipments for my new cafe. Even, there is still some that I havent bought. Wuahhh........its really hard.

I met with Indian who has Indian Vegetarian Resto in Sarinah Thamrin. He is interested to order our vegetarian Kebab. Do you know how I made that Kebab? I just mixed all spices and vegetables with feeling then praying, "I hope it will not kill them" ahhahah. But I did it. They said, "Its delicious". WUahhhhh how glad were I?

But I got bad accident on my hand due to cooking. Both of my had got burn. Hikkkk...........I wish the fruits of my sacrifice will not useless. Insha ALLAH...But Insha ALLAH I'll keep fight.

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VENI-VIDI-VICI

Its been almost 2 months, I established ALIBABA KEBAB. But unfortunately it hasnt been ran well as I predicted before.I havent seen the good progress. The omzet is still low. Yeah, I admitted that last month there was mismanagement. One of my employee cheated. But I had fired him. There was so many mistakes that he had done. And I think I dont need to clarify here. But his biggest mistakes was there was a mount of money that gone with the wind. He was reckleshly enough. I saw that by myself. He put the money not in properly place. And He also marked up the cost of raw material.

Now, I'm trying hard to wake up from long sleep. The business must run. I responsible to return a lot of money and my employees life. They are poor people, and I know well how they need that job. Thats why I have to keep striving. May be if the business stop, I still can feed up my self. But what about them???

I know someday I will winning this game business.

May be I will move one of my outlet to nearest my house. There I will focus to expand business. I will offer various menu, including of SISHA/HOOKAH (Traditional Arabian Cigarettes). May be I'll give eye catching name for my Arabian Street Cafe. There are some optional names;

• CAFE ARAB (ARABIAN CAFE)
• WARUNG ARAB ALIBABA
• WARUNG SISHA
• JASMINE CAFE (Jasmine is my character in novel SURAT CINTA SAIFUL MALOOK. And I also love Jasmine flower)
• WARUNG ARAB GILA

VENI...VIDI...VICI

Veni, vidi, vici (IPA /weːniː wiːdiː wiːkiː/ or /veni vidi viʧi/) is a famous Latin phrase coined by Roman general and consul Julius Caesar in 47 BC; Caesar used the phrase as the full text of his message to the Roman senate describing his recent victory over Pharnaces II of Pontus in the Battle of Zela. Caesar's terse remark -- translated as "I came, I saw, I conquered", or even "came, saw, conquered" -- simultaneously proclaimed the totality of his victory and served to remind the senate of Caesar's military prowess (Caesar was still in the midst of a civil war); alternatively, the remark can be viewed as an expression of Caesar's contempt for the patrician senate, traditionally representing the most powerful group in the Roman Republic.

I have decided to do this business, I have started and I will never stop before winning this business. Here I come. I will success. Insha ALLAH.

"YOU ARE WHAT YOU THINK ALL DAY LONG"

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DONT SAY LOVE!!!

DONT SAY LOVE, IF YOU ARE NOT READY ENOUGH TO COMMIT WHAT HAVE YOU SAID.
You gonna hurt someone else that thought it was trully.
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You should know

When you felt tired and hopeless although you had tried best..
Allah SWT knew how you had tried hard.

When you had cried all day long but you were still sad...
Allah SWT had counted your tears.

When you thought that you were waiting for something and you felt the time so long...
Allah SWT had been waiting with you.

When you felt alone and your friends too busy with their activities...
Allah SWT would be always beside you.

When you thought you had tried everything and you were stuck, didnt know what should you do next.
Allah SWT had the answers.

When everything became irrational and felt deppresed...
Allah SWT could make you secure.

WHen suddenly you could see the way out of your lost expectation

Allah SWT had been whispering to you.

When everything was going smoothly and you would like to thankful to ALLAH.
Allah SWT had blessed you.

When beautiful moment happened and you were amazing...
Allah SWT had been smiling to you.

When you had goals to be reached and dreams to be achieved...
Allah SWT had opened your eyes and called your name.

Remember wherever you are...
Allah SWT KNOWS .......

FromAbdullah bin 'Amr r.a., Rasulullah s.a.w. said, "Convey my messages although only one ayah"

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WHEN ALLAH BECAME THE MOST IMPORTANT REASON

Friends, when ALLAH became the most important reason. So I dared to decide to marry and speed up my marriage planning.

when ALLAH became the most important reason, then I dared to determine with who I'll marry. I would not often to ask about my prospective spouse. I accepted him warmly for the sake of Allah. And one certain matter that I did not go along interfere in or arranged anything that became Allah's affair.So I would only accept trully proposal from someone who dedicated his life for ALLAH. As long he was a good moslem, although He was ugly, old, poor, uneducated or another 'dunya's reasons' I would accept him with Allah's guidances.That's all.

When ALLAH became the most important reason, then I would try as hard as possible to not see all lacks of my husband. And I tried as hard as possible also to make him happy with me.

When ALLAH became the most important reason, then dripped my tears when seeing all kindness and my husband's surplus. that it seems was difficult to be competed with by me.

when ALLAH became the most important reason, I prayed, "Yaa Allah, please made him, an imam, husband and the good father for my kids. And just requested him to be my partner in dunya and akhirat"

Friends, if Allah became the reason was most important to marry, then necessarily did not have again the term, searched the suitable match, that was ideal, that was moving our heart, that pacified the spirit, and bla-bla . Because all of that just emerged precisely after passing the level of marriage. Just do nikah with for the sake of Allah and must be convinced to The greatest determiners all of them.

Notes: Akhi wa ukhti dont be confused with your choice. No body is perfect.

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LOVE

Does your palms sweat?

Does your heart beat fast?

Are you spechless when you meet her/him?

That is not LOVE but LIKE

Your hand cant stop to touch her/him?

That is not LOVE but LUST

Are you proud to her/him? And always passionately show up to everybody?

That is not LOVE but LUCKY

Do you want her/him due to you know that He/She will be always beside you?

That is not LOVE but LONELY

Do you still with her/him because of everybody wants it?

That is not LOVE but LOYALTY

Do you accept her/his love's statement because you dont want to hurt her/him?

That is not LOVE but MERCY

Are you ready to give all things that you like to her/him?

That is not LOVE but GENEROUSITY

Do you still stand by her/him with the mixed up between painful and joy that cant be described and very blindful?

That is LOVE

Do you still accept her/his mistakes, due to that is a part of her/his personality?

That is LOVE

Do you interested to someoneelse but still stand by her/him loyally?

That is LOVE

Are you willing to give your heart, life and death to her/him?

That is LOVE

Are you terribly sad when she/he is sad?

That is LOVE

Does her/his eyes look at your real heart and touch your deepest soul till you feel pain?

That is LOVE

Now, if we know that love is painful and hurt us, why do we still love her/him?

This painful.... miserable???

Why should we find and want it all?

Because this suffering is a death of our egoism.

Why?

That is due to LOVE

P.S.

What is your feeling beloved?

I love you for the sake of Allah

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I COULDNT ACCESS MY YAHOO MAIL

Its been a week, I couldnt access my yahoo mail. It really makes me in terribly BAD MOOD. I couldnt checked my mail. I've tried all, even I converted my yahoo from Indonesia to US. But its not working. May be yahoo in crowded traffic now. I just got the explanation from yahoo :

Sorry for the inconvenience.

You've stumbled upon a temporary problem we're having with Yahoo! Mail. Usually this problem gets resolved quickly, without you doing a thing. In fact it may be taken care of now.

• Try pressing the Reload or Refresh button on your browser, or logging out than back into your Yahoo! account. Hopefully that will take care of things.

If that doesn't fix the problem, please be patient while we sort it out and try again shortly. The fact that you're reading this page means we've been automatically notified of the issue, and chances are we're working on it now.

• If you think you've been more than patient and tried the tricks above, feel free to contact Customer Care about Error Code 1.

Thanks,

The Yahoo! Mail Team

Hik...hik...hik... for all of my relations, publisher, admirers, readers,bankers, enemies, etc. I apologize cant respond you asap. Will get in touch with all of you from this sites.

P.S. I hate YAHOO
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LETTER FOR MY FUTURE HUBBY...

Assalamualaikum wr wb.......

How are you going, my future hubby?

How's your family?

How's your business? Job?

Hope we always be fine and be in Allah's protection.

Although i never met nor saw your face before, but as Savage Garden songs "I Knew I love You before I met you"

and like western people always say, "others might catch my eyes, but you caught my heart", indeed you have won my heart thoroughly.

My future hubby, are you waiting me?

Waiting can be bored for some people, but not for me.

Waiting... only few people consider it as a special thing and for me, waiting is special moment indeed. While waiting you here....many useful things can be done like reading, writing, light discussion, or other good things.

The most beautiful god creature...dont bet your life just because you are exhausted in waiting and finding me, moreover only for marriage.

Because marriage is not built in a moment but can be shattered in a second.

Marriage gate is something which is sacred and holy therefore we need to enter it with a pure, sincere and honest heart oneday.

Once you're there, Allah will dislike if there's someone who's trying to go out from it. Please fill your days with prayers to Allah, ask only direction from Him, pray for me in your night pray and i will also pray for you in, my dearest future hubby.

My future hubby, Perhaps my past wasnt like other ukhtis you know, and you might already heard about my stories that are likely to be erased from my mind.

Therefore, i dont wanna hide my past from you, i'll let you know all about me so the communication between us will be clear.

Also, easier for you to accept me in just the way i am and the other way around.

My future hubby, Some of my relatives had asked me about you. Even they didnt ask any detail but i could notice that they asked me who's my future hubby and how he looks like, and i know that it is you.

Their questions have been answered simply by my smile as i want to make a surprise one day. Yes, they will likely to be surprised knowing that there will be a guardian angel who's gonna live with them. I cant hardly wait to see their surprised faces one day....yeah one day, my half-holy soul.......

While waiting the time arrive, i'll do self-introspection before taking step to go through the life with you, my future companion angel. So that i will be a good person in front of God and your heart, and i will be proper as your beloved wife and mother for our future little angels.

You must ever heard surah An Nur, verse 26 which states that "a good man is for a good woman and a good woman is for a good man". i wanna be this kind of woman so i'll be proper to accompany you someday till the end of the world. If till this time Allah havent united us, i'm sure it's just because im not ready good enough for you right now. I wanna be a good and the only woman for you because im sure you are the best man for me and Allah's choice will never be wrong.

My future hubby, I will waiting you till you come to knock my heart oneday, but maybe not now. Because this journey is still long, many problems should be faced. My heart sings in the rhythm of thought as if nothing remain even a second. Anxious cant be avoided. About a flash of shadow, about a piece of future.

My future hubby, I know you're missing me, be patient, a wonderful times will come for us, when we will be united in a beautiful holy marriage tie. How are you there? Are you tired finding me? Are you exhausted searching for me there? Just be patient and keep your faith. I will wait, welcoming you with an open arms and and the sweetest smile in my beautiful gown. When the time is come, wear that crown and run to me as you see me. There are lot things i have to find to bring happiness for our life. Pray for me my holy soul, and be patient to find me here...

I promise will wait you.........from now on, my dearest love......

wassalamualaikum wr wb

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