Thursday, September 21, 2006

When.....



"I've told all of my life. You are the most precious for me. I thankful to Allah for all blessings. Will you marry me with all of the truth.......", He finished his stories

Well, all the stories was shocking me alot. Drop by drop of tears was flowing. Then I removed all by my 'jilbab'. And looked at to a man in front of me. Ya Allah, I could see his worrying face and his tears. Oh my GOD, I couldnt imagine a big man such him was crying.

"Beloved, let me praying now?", I begged a little time him. He smiled and letted me go.

I performed Wudhu & did Shalat. It was long prayers. After shalat. I was crying on my praying rugs.

"Ya Allah, is he my IMAM. A man who'll be my partner in YOUR way until return YOU?".
I satisfied my self by praying & crying. Then I recited Quran. After all, I left the room and went to living room to see him.

I called him to talk. He sat beside me on the sofa. I saw his eyes. And tried to say something. BUt....Ohhhh I couldnt say anything. His sharp eyes shooted my heart. Then I moved my eyes to other views and started to talk.

"Beloved, you know before I met you. I spent my time by praying. I prayed to Allah for a companion who could be my IMAM. I dont want to spend my love to a man who was not my husband. It was only wasting time by SINS. Thats why I just asked the nice man who could be my Imam. I did shalatul sunnah nawafil beside my shalatul fardhu. Alhamdulillah until now I'm still doing that. Spend my night with Allah by Tahajud, Istikharah, Hajad. Start my morning by shalatul dhuha. Do fasting sunnah, etc. Why??? I just want to request a man who could be my Imam. I knew that a Good man will only get a good girl. Thats why I preservered myself to be better.
And the time was coming, when you came to my life. I dont know what has Allah planned. He sent you to me. Allah must be had planned it before. Honestly when you told me your past. It was shocking me alot. I realized that I didnt know anything about your past. Thats why I did Shalat to asking for Allah. Now I realized Why should I ignored a man such you. Who loves me for the sake of Allah. Who has successfully be a 'Kaffah' (totally) moslem. Even you better than me who has been moslem for 24 years.
How fortunate me having you. But WALLAHI, I dont want to stealing you from anybody. I love you for the sake of Allah.
The strange statement that I'd never known before. When I met you, I was falling in love for 'deen' reasons. I know nobody is perfect. BUt your 'deen' covers your unperfect side. Why should I blame your past. Allah loves you so much. THats why HE took you from that bad phase. And then HE shower you with HIS blessings.
Well.......I've decided to accept you to be my companion. Insha Allah, we'll pass all difficulties with Allah's guidance. I LOVE YOU FOR THE SAKE OF ALLAH. Until we return to Allah".


Then both of us were crying happily. Thanks to Allah for that perfect moment. I really love him for the sake of Allah. Thanks for the precious love.
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Thursday, September 14, 2006

The Plannings



Well.........
A human proposed and God disposed.
We always in rush with our prayers.
Why??? Because We are only human beings with NAFS
Dont care its good according to Allah opinion or not,
as long its too good to be true for us.
We request it to Allah in rush.
"Allah..........please grant my dua. Please!!!"
BE PATIENT PLEASE!

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Wednesday, September 06, 2006

Ya Allah



Ya Allah..........
Thankful for today,
But I'm anxious, I'm worry everything not according to plans
Ya Allah.........
I'm requesting for th best only

Is he my companion who you've prepared for me???
Is he a guy in my dreams?

Ya Allah...........
I'm only requesting the best from you
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Tuesday, September 05, 2006

In Waiting..........



"I'm on the plane about to leave. Pls make duaa for me beloved. Insha Allah C U soon!"
Sender:
Beloved
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I got this message this morning when I was on the bank. Without need long thinking I made duaa for him.
Last night 11.30 (Indonesian time) again He made phone call to ensure me not to worry and keep praying for him. Insha Allah very soon will meet.

Ya Allah, please keep him!!! How couldnt I sleep, if He hasnt been beside me. I hope tomorow morning will arrive in Jakarta.

Ya Allah.............please keep him!

***ANXIOUS***
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Monday, September 04, 2006

Chinese Proverbs that Inspire me



路遥知马力,日久见人心
Lù yáo zhī mă lì, rì jiŭ jiàn rén xīn
Over a long distance, you learn about the strength of your horse; over a long time, you learn about the character of your friend

This can be used positively to praise a true friend; or negatively to criticize friends that could not stand a test

bīng dòng sān chĭ, fēi yí rì zhī hán
Three feet of ice does not result from one day of freezing weather
Compare: Rome was not built in a day (Roma non fu fatta in un giorno, Italian proverb).
有志者,事竟成
yoŭ zhì zhe, shìjìng chéng
If a person has ambition, things will be accomplished
Moral: Where there is a will, there is a way (English equivalent)
rén suàn bù rú tiān suàn
Man's schemes are inferior to those made by heaven.
Figuratively: Man proposes and God disposes

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