SCSM on PRO 2 FM (105.1 FM)
My publisher told me to come for live interview on Radio PRO 2 FM regarding "Surat Cinta Saiful Malook". So all the readers, admires, anyone. Please stay tune on PRO 2 FM 3 June 2007 at 4.30 pm. I will be there, Insha ALLAH.
HELLO....!!!
Its been more than a month, I didnt write something here. There were so many stories that happened. Topsy turvy, up and down, happy and sad.
Its all about business progress. Finally I got catering order for wedding party, after long time lost hopes. I hope this is good sign for my progress.
Even this week, I almost worried cant pay my employees. I had no cash money. Almost money has been investing to equipments for my new cafe. Even, there is still some that I havent bought. Wuahhh........its really hard.
I met with Indian who has Indian Vegetarian Resto in Sarinah Thamrin. He is interested to order our vegetarian Kebab. Do you know how I made that Kebab? I just mixed all spices and vegetables with feeling then praying, "I hope it will not kill them" ahhahah. But I did it. They said, "Its delicious". WUahhhhh how glad were I?
But I got bad accident on my hand due to cooking. Both of my had got burn. Hikkkk...........I wish the fruits of my sacrifice will not useless. Insha ALLAH...But Insha ALLAH I'll keep fight.
VENI-VIDI-VICI
Its been almost 2 months, I established ALIBABA KEBAB. But unfortunately it hasnt been ran well as I predicted before.I havent seen the good progress. The omzet is still low. Yeah, I admitted that last month there was mismanagement. One of my employee cheated. But I had fired him. There was so many mistakes that he had done. And I think I dont need to clarify here. But his biggest mistakes was there was a mount of money that gone with the wind. He was reckleshly enough. I saw that by myself. He put the money not in properly place. And He also marked up the cost of raw material.
Now, I'm trying hard to wake up from long sleep. The business must run. I responsible to return a lot of money and my employees life. They are poor people, and I know well how they need that job. Thats why I have to keep striving. May be if the business stop, I still can feed up my self. But what about them???
I know someday I will winning this game business.
May be I will move one of my outlet to nearest my house. There I will focus to expand business. I will offer various menu, including of SISHA/HOOKAH (Traditional Arabian Cigarettes). May be I'll give eye catching name for my Arabian Street Cafe. There are some optional names;
VENI...VIDI...VICI
Veni, vidi, vici (IPA /weːniː wiːdiː wiːkiː/ or /veni vidi viʧi/) is a famous Latin phrase coined by Roman general and consul Julius Caesar in 47 BC; Caesar used the phrase as the full text of his message to the Roman senate describing his recent victory over Pharnaces II of Pontus in the Battle of Zela. Caesar's terse remark -- translated as "I came, I saw, I conquered", or even "came, saw, conquered" -- simultaneously proclaimed the totality of his victory and served to remind the senate of Caesar's military prowess (Caesar was still in the midst of a civil war); alternatively, the remark can be viewed as an expression of Caesar's contempt for the patrician senate, traditionally representing the most powerful group in the Roman Republic.
I have decided to do this business, I have started and I will never stop before winning this business. Here I come. I will success. Insha ALLAH.
"YOU ARE WHAT YOU THINK ALL DAY LONG"
When you felt tired and hopeless although you had tried best.. 
When everything was going smoothly and you would like to thankful to ALLAH.
FromAbdullah bin 'Amr r.a., Rasulullah s.a.w. said, "Convey my messages although only one ayah" 
WHEN ALLAH BECAME THE MOST IMPORTANT REASON
Friends, when ALLAH became the most important reason. So I dared to decide to marry and speed up my marriage planning.
when ALLAH became the most important reason, then I dared to determine with who I'll marry. I would not often to ask about my prospective spouse. I accepted him warmly for the sake of Allah. And one certain matter that I did not go along interfere in or arranged anything that became Allah's affair.So I would only accept trully proposal from someone who dedicated his life for ALLAH. As long he was a good moslem, although He was ugly, old, poor, uneducated or another 'dunya's reasons' I would accept him with Allah's guidances.That's all.
When ALLAH became the most important reason, then I would try as hard as possible to not see all lacks of my husband. And I tried as hard as possible also to make him happy with me.
When ALLAH became the most important reason, then dripped my tears when seeing all kindness and my husband's surplus. that it seems was difficult to be competed with by me.
when ALLAH became the most important reason, I prayed, "Yaa Allah, please made him, an imam, husband and the good father for my kids. And just requested him to be my partner in dunya and akhirat"
Friends, if Allah became the reason was most important to marry, then necessarily did not have again the term, searched the suitable match, that was ideal, that was moving our heart, that pacified the spirit, and bla-bla . Because all of that just emerged precisely after passing the level of marriage. Just do nikah with for the sake of Allah and must be convinced to The greatest determiners all of them.
Notes: Akhi wa ukhti dont be confused with your choice. No body is perfect.
LOVE
Does your palms sweat?
Does your heart beat fast?
Are you spechless when you meet her/him?
That is not LOVE but LIKE
Your hand cant stop to touch her/him?
That is not LOVE but LUST
Are you proud to her/him? And always passionately show up to everybody?
That is not LOVE but LUCKY
Do you want her/him due to you know that He/She will be always beside you?
That is not LOVE but LONELY
Do you still with her/him because of everybody wants it?
That is not LOVE but LOYALTY
Do you accept her/his love's statement because you dont want to hurt her/him?
That is not LOVE but MERCY
Are you ready to give all things that you like to her/him?
That is not LOVE but GENEROUSITY
Do you still stand by her/him with the mixed up between painful and joy that cant be described and very blindful?
That is LOVE
Do you still accept her/his mistakes, due to that is a part of her/his personality?
That is LOVE
Do you interested to someoneelse but still stand by her/him loyally?
That is LOVE
Are you willing to give your heart, life and death to her/him?
That is LOVE
Are you terribly sad when she/he is sad?
That is LOVE
Does her/his eyes look at your real heart and touch your deepest soul till you feel pain?
That is LOVE
Now, if we know that love is painful and hurt us, why do we still love her/him?
This painful.... miserable???
Why should we find and want it all?
Because this suffering is a death of our egoism.
Why?
That is due to LOVE
P.S.
What is your feeling beloved?
I love you for the sake of Allah
I COULDNT ACCESS MY YAHOO MAIL
Its been a week, I couldnt access my yahoo mail. It really makes me in terribly BAD MOOD. I couldnt checked my mail. I've tried all, even I converted my yahoo from Indonesia to US. But its not working. May be yahoo in crowded traffic now. I just got the explanation from yahoo :
You've stumbled upon a temporary problem we're having with Yahoo! Mail. Usually this problem gets resolved quickly, without you doing a thing. In fact it may be taken care of now.
If that doesn't fix the problem, please be patient while we sort it out and try again shortly. The fact that you're reading this page means we've been automatically notified of the issue, and chances are we're working on it now.
Thanks,
The Yahoo! Mail Team
Hik...hik...hik... for all of my relations, publisher, admirers, readers,bankers, enemies, etc. I apologize cant respond you asap. Will get in touch with all of you from this sites.
P.S. I hate YAHOO
LETTER FOR MY FUTURE HUBBY...
Questions to Ask a Prospective Marriage Partner
Derived from Bent Rib: A Journey through Women’s issues in Islam
by Huda al-Khattab. Compiled by Chloe Chaudhry
The following questions are offered in the interest of helping Muslims to think through issues important to marriage. You may wish to ask these questions when you’re considering someone for marriage, either of them or just of yourself.
You may also wish to ask them of an intermediary, who may be able to provide you an unbiased perspective.
Some of the questions may seem "unIslamic", but they deal with the reality of today's social situation, and NOT asking a question may ultimately prove to be a bigger mistake than asking it.
I lost my dreams...
Wallahi, I'm in sadness.
I lost my dreams...
The book cant energizes me anymore.
Ya Allah, let me out from this complicated situation.
I'm tired
To my beloved companion in Jannah...
Beloved, are you the one who has written in our destiny that we'll combine in Jannah (=paradise)?
What have you done to build our beautiful palace in Jannah?
What have you prepared for our everlasting life in Jannah?
I love you for the sake of Allah
Here I also try to be better.
Although I'm not completely perfect as a moslemah, but Insha Allah I'll keep striving.
Although, dunya (=world) always attempt me to do bad.
But my love to you will energizes me to strive in Allah's pathway.
I miss you alot.
Will we meet in Jannah?
When do we meet?
Oh, beloved help me please!
Take me out from this crazy world!
Pray for me!
Energize my days with your eeman.
Lead me to walk in Allah's ways.
Never leave me alone in the dark.
Because I really want to see you in Jannah.
We'll love on each other in Jannah.
Raise our jundillah in our palace in Jannah.
Oh beloved, have you prepared it yet?
Ya Allah, am I suitable for a beloved companion in Jannah?
Wallahu'alam bisshawab.
P.S. If your chosen prince never come in the world, dont worry He has been waiting for you in Jannah. He will never hurt you. Because He is well-preserved for a moslemah who strive.
The Journey almost over...
The journey almost over. When the time's up, I hope I have done what should I do.
Ya Allah, Insha Allah I'm ready to return to you. If its better than I live longer but I'll be useless and only add sins.
Its gonna be a quarter of century. But my biggest dream has not been reaching. Hik...hik...hik...
It really makes me stress.
Ya ALLAH, what do you want from me?
Please let me know!!!
I almost going ashtray.
The most stupid is I again expecting something...
APA KABAR CINTA?
Apa kabar (=How are you? or hows?) Cinta (=love)
Apa kabar Cinta? Does it still stay in our heart?
What kind of love that you have? If you love someone or something not for the sake of Allah, obviously you'll get dissapointed. Love to something or someone is not everlasting as we love for the sake of Allah.
Example:
You were mad in love with someone pretty. She was so beautiful & sexy . You thought she was the most wonderful miracle in the world. Then you considered to marry her. Yeah, at the 1st year may be you were the most happiness person in the world. Even, when she gave birth until 2nd child. She was still a perfect lady. But obviously, by the time age will killed her young. The girl who was so beautiful, sexy, kind became contradiction. She is not beautiful or sexy anymore, due to she is become older now. She is not a girl who you loved before. Due to you loved and married her for phisically reasons. So when all of that has dissapeared, so your love will dissapeared also. No more love. And you become dissapointed because she is not the one who you loved. She is definitely different from 20years ago.
Or you were loving someone rich. He heredited his parent dinasty, with a lot of business. Many luxury cars and deposited banks. bla...bla ...bla...And then you married him for that reasons. After 5 years marriages, you faced something bad. Your husband bancrupted. No more deposited money in the bank. All cars has been sold. Bank has taken all of your husband business. Is there still any love???
I dont think so, because you love him for material reasons. After he lost all the attractive things. So you leave him in sadness.
How a pity you who love someone for that stupid reasons!
Life is too short to have fun only.
Why dont we love someone by some reasons that will remind us about ALLAH. That someday we'll return to ALLAH and we need a partner to keep striving in Allah's way. And you request from Allah, the chosen prince who'll accompany you to strive. And when Allah's has given him/her, you love him/her for the sake of Allah You love him/her just because you sure that he/she is someone special. He/she is too speacial to accompany you pass this 'dunya' (=world) to 'jannah' (=paradise).
Insha Allah, you'll not get dissapointed.
"Love is unconditional and marriage is not". Whats the mean of love is unconditional? Does it means you love someone without any condition? You just love him/her and you will not ask more. You'll not ask for long term relationship in marriage. Because marriage will need alot of commitments, paperworks, costs a lot of money, etc. They enjoy their love without marriage. Love just love, no responsibilities. Even some of decide to keep staying outside marriage. Living together without marriage, based on mutualism. Or they do marriage but without paperwork. And ofcourse they do as what husband-wife do. They have babies. But they keep avoiding marriage. They dont believe marriage. As long they love on each other, they will live happily in that relationship. Because they consider love is unconditional.
I dissagree with this sentences. Because as a moslemah, it will be my pride if someone loves me and only propose me for marriage. He only wants to dedicate his special love for me only in blessing relationship. He is ready to sacrifice his private life to commit with his wife only. He is ready to provide all that his wife needs. For him commitments, paperworks, etc are the easy things to fulfill.
"Love in marriage is unconditional"
ALLAH's GUIDANCES
Do you know that every doubtful that emerges from your deepest heart regard issues is one of Allah's guidances to you.
But unfortunately, sometimes we are fully deaf, blind, and dont use our heart to catch the guidances.
For example:
You love someone much till you cant use your logical mind to stop loving him/her. Even you always imagine, 'How could you live without him/her'.
When you are falling in love, all the things on your lover are the best thing for you.
Okey, let see He/She really a good person (according to people's consideration). And then you request to ALLAH for him/her. All day long you cryly beg to ALLAH to let you combine with your lover.
You pray, "If He/She is the best for me, please let us combine. If He/She is not the best for me, please remove all feeling in my mind! But I think He/She is the best for me. He/She is the only one who has stolen my heart by his/her attitudes. He/She is a pious and He/She has every people want to. Please Allah, let us combine!"
All the time you pray the same request about your lover. You trust that Allah knows the best, but how a pity you are that now you are really falling in love with that guy/girl. So you also try to request him/her from ALLAH due to some reasons.
And then........TARRAM!!! You get it as you expected. But, why the relationship so hard. Tearful and laughing comes together along the love story. Sometimes you really hard to accept the consequences but you keep faith with the relationship. DOnt care how hard is it. And then its really getting hard, you try hard to collecting a piece of strength to wake up. And then its really getting worse from you expected before. Then you really give up and back to ALLAH.
You pray, "Ya ALLAH, please let me out from this if He/She is really not good for me!Please give me the signs of that!"
And I can understand what ALLAH will says, "My slaver, I've warned you by a lot of SIGNS. Why dont you aware?"
Oh, how pity you are!!!
And then how we learn to be aware of ALLAH's guidance? Hem......much praying and better not have affair outside marriage. Do ISTIKHARAH when you ready to marry! But again dont be cheating on ISTIKHARAH!
How could you trust that Allah's decision is the best, but you keep forcing ALLAH to give according to your favour???
Now the question is, ARE YOU REALLY WANT TO REQUEST ALLAH's GUIDANCES???
SHORT STORIES
I HATE YOU BUT I MISS YOU...
Do you know a song title by SLANK??? Yeah, 'I HATE YOU BUT I MISS YOU'.
Hahahha...........I know its not only a such of song title but It has recorded a singer moment also. Have you fell that??? Hem......honestly I have.
Now I'm getting realized that what old people said that, " Dont love someone much, Who know someday you'll hate him/her. ANd dont hate someone much, who know He/She will be yours".
Watch up your step!!!
May be you should check it up:
الْأَخِلَّاء يَوْمَئِذٍ بَعْضُهُمْ لِبَعْضٍ عَدُوٌّ إِلَّا الْمُتَّقِينَ
"The friends shall on that day be enemies one to another, except those who guard (against evil)" Q.S. Adz Zukruf: 67
Well, dont love person not for the sake of ALLAH! You'll be disapointed....
Have you ever in sad?
Please dont disturb with your kinda dreams. I have lost my dreams. And now you offer me your dreams. Hikhikhik...
I could catch how you tried to explain me meanwhile you were so nervous.
" I do what I able to do..."
Aghhhh.......You dont understand anything.
How could you broken all expectations after I ignored all of my dreams???
And I was just silent when you tried to explain so many reasons that made me dizzy-dazling. I couldnt thinking...
CRIED softly and suddenly I was unconscious on my bed and the phone was closed by itself. I was still thinking that it was only everslept. But when I woke up from sleep, I took Wudhu and performed my qiyamul lail. But it was litle bit different than before. DUe to I was really enjoying cried in front of ILLAHI RABB.
When people who knows me that I'm a very positive person asked me 'Have you ever in sad?'
I answered, "ABSOLUTELY YES. By the GOD, I'm in sad now"
Let see, how long I can restrain myself not to get in touch with that person.
YA ALLAH, Please grasp me!!! Dont let me going ashtray by following shaytan
Kabhi Khushi Kabhi Gham......
Yeah, Its life. Kabhi Khushi Kabhi Gham. Here I'm not trying to tell you all about The Bollywood Movie "Kabhi Khushi Kabhi Gham". But I just want to share about life.
Kabhi Khushi Kabhi Gham. SOmetimes Happy sometimes Sad. Sadness and happiness come and go. Life is not definitely happy forever, but absolutely not sad all the time. Sad and happy will always accompany your life. It will always makes your life more lively. Life is not beautiful without all those things.
When you are in happiness, please never think that it'll everlasting! Someday, the life is unpredictable. WHo knows after all happiness that happened to us will be replaced by sadness.
When you are in sadness, please never consider that you are th emost miserable person! Trust me! Someday your sadness will move to happiness. SOmeday you might be missing your sadness period.
Success things may be started by failure things. SOmeone who's living in wealthy now may be started from very poor person in the past. SOmeone genius now, may be He/She was stupid person in the past. Someone who loves someone-else alot may be someday He/She will loses his/her lover in the future due to destiny, e.g; death or broken heart.
Should we have big hopes to something or someone??? Well if you expect something or someone to be as your favour. Trust me! you'll be disapointed.
I did that.
But if you expect ALLAH will always give you the best things and you trust it! Insha Allah, you'll never disapointed.
I hate to be someone whoo's expecting someone else will be a part of my dreams. Yeah.......When you created an Idol person in your mind. Yup, READY TO GET DISAPOINTED!!!
Ya Allah, dont let me fall down by stupid expectations!!! Audzubillahiminassyaithanirrajim
