a story goes on

The story of my life now is going to next chapter.
Dont know when will it end?
But, I always trying to thankful what has ALLAH given to me.
I dont care how hard to accept it.
Well, I just want to be a part of the story.
I'm sure, someday I'll miss this part.
The story when I'm in definitely confused what I feel.
Every moment will be unforgetable.

Anyway, I shy........when I again and again come to ALLAH and say 'I GIVE UP'.
Please let me get what I want. How stupid am I? I dont know what will the best for me, and try to convincing ALLAH that what I want is the best.

Hey....I just have simple request. So...please let me know the reason why should I strive patiently for the simple thing that I want.


TIRED...
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SHORT STORIES

Why do we close eyes when sleep?

Why do we cry?

Why do we imagine?

Due to the most beautiful thing in the world is UNSEEN

When we found someone whose the uniqueness is same with us....

We combine with him/her within same pecualiarity is named of LOVE.

There are some that we dont want to release.

Some people whom we dont want to leave.

But remember..., release IS NOT the end of world....

But the begining of a new life.....

There is happiness to whom it might has been crying alot,

being hurted...

has found...

and to whom it may it might has tried the best.

Because of THEY can apreciate how important person who can touch their life.

Trully LOVE...

Its when your tears flow and STILL CARE to him/her.

Its when he/she doesnt care with you but you are STILL waiting for him/her loyally.

Its when he/she has been starting to love somebody else and you are STILL smiling up to him/her meanwhile says, "I'm taking part of your happiness".

If love is not successful, RELEASE yourself.

Let your heart again spread its wings and fly to the wild.

Remember!

That might be you found love and lost it, but

When that love is die....You dont need to die with him.

The strongest person IS NOT they who always win.

BUT they who keep standing when they fall.

Whether how.......

In life's journey, you learn about yourself

and realise that regret not necessarily happened.

Only the eternal appreciation for the coices of life that has been for you.

The TRUE FRIEND...will be understood when you say "I forget".

Will waiting forever when you says, "Wait me for a moment!"

Keep staying when you say, "Leave me alone!"

Open the door although you've been knocking.

LOVE someone...

IS NOT about how to forget....but how to forgive....

IS NOT about how to listen....but how to understand....

IS NOT about what do you see...but what do you feel....

IS NOT about how to release....but how to KEEP FAITH....

More dangerous drip the tears in the heart than sobbely cry.

The tears can be removed.

But unseen tears makes the wound that will be never lost.

In the love affairs, we are VERY RARE win the love.

But when the love is SINCERE, although you lost but you KEEP WINNING just because you are happy.

Can love someone MORE THAN you love yourself.

The time will arrive, when you have to stop love someone NOT because of that person has stopped to love us.

BUT because of we realise that person will be more happy if we release him/her.

If you really love someone, dont release him/her!

Dont believe that release always means of you really love him/her.

BUT...KEEP STRIVING to get your love.

That is TRUE LOVE.

It will be better waiting for your expected person than walk together with someone's avalaible.

Sometimes, someone who you love is THE MOST person who hurt you.

And sometimes, the friend who cry along you is the love that's not realised by you.

Modesty guide you the strength not the weakness.

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I HATE YOU BUT I MISS YOU...

Do you know a song title by SLANK??? Yeah, 'I HATE YOU BUT I MISS YOU'.

Hahahha...........I know its not only a such of song title but It has recorded a singer moment also. Have you fell that??? Hem......honestly I have.

Now I'm getting realized that what old people said that, " Dont love someone much, Who know someday you'll hate him/her. ANd dont hate someone much, who know He/She will be yours".

Watch up your step!!!

May be you should check it up:

الْأَخِلَّاء يَوْمَئِذٍ بَعْضُهُمْ لِبَعْضٍ عَدُوٌّ إِلَّا الْمُتَّقِينَ

"The friends shall on that day be enemies one to another, except those who guard (against evil)" Q.S. Adz Zukruf: 67

Well, dont love person not for the sake of ALLAH! You'll be disapointed....

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Have you ever in sad?

Please dont disturb with your kinda dreams. I have lost my dreams. And now you offer me your dreams. Hikhikhik...

I could catch how you tried to explain me meanwhile you were so nervous.

" I do what I able to do..."

Aghhhh.......You dont understand anything.

How could you broken all expectations after I ignored all of my dreams???

And I was just silent when you tried to explain so many reasons that made me dizzy-dazling. I couldnt thinking...

CRIED softly and suddenly I was unconscious on my bed and the phone was closed by itself. I was still thinking that it was only everslept. But when I woke up from sleep, I took Wudhu and performed my qiyamul lail. But it was litle bit different than before. DUe to I was really enjoying cried in front of ILLAHI RABB.

When people who knows me that I'm a very positive person asked me 'Have you ever in sad?'

I answered, "ABSOLUTELY YES. By the GOD, I'm in sad now"

Let see, how long I can restrain myself not to get in touch with that person.

YA ALLAH, Please grasp me!!! Dont let me going ashtray by following shaytan

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Kabhi Khushi Kabhi Gham......

Yeah, Its life. Kabhi Khushi Kabhi Gham. Here I'm not trying to tell you all about The Bollywood Movie "Kabhi Khushi Kabhi Gham". But I just want to share about life.

Kabhi Khushi Kabhi Gham. SOmetimes Happy sometimes Sad. Sadness and happiness come and go. Life is not definitely happy forever, but absolutely not sad all the time. Sad and happy will always accompany your life. It will always makes your life more lively. Life is not beautiful without all those things.

When you are in happiness, please never think that it'll everlasting! Someday, the life is unpredictable. WHo knows after all happiness that happened to us will be replaced by sadness.

When you are in sadness, please never consider that you are th emost miserable person! Trust me! Someday your sadness will move to happiness. SOmeday you might be missing your sadness period.

Success things may be started by failure things. SOmeone who's living in wealthy now may be started from very poor person in the past. SOmeone genius now, may be He/She was stupid person in the past. Someone who loves someone-else alot may be someday He/She will loses his/her lover in the future due to destiny, e.g; death or broken heart.

Should we have big hopes to something or someone??? Well if you expect something or someone to be as your favour. Trust me! you'll be disapointed.

I did that.

But if you expect ALLAH will always give you the best things and you trust it! Insha Allah, you'll never disapointed.

I hate to be someone whoo's expecting someone else will be a part of my dreams. Yeah.......When you created an Idol person in your mind. Yup, READY TO GET DISAPOINTED!!!

Ya Allah, dont let me fall down by stupid expectations!!! Audzubillahiminassyaithanirrajim

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Promise.....

Insha Allah, We'll never forget to say, "I Love You for The Sake Of Allah" on each other Before we separate. So i one of us return to Allah, We'll never regreet due to We are sure that the last word that We say is "I Love you for the sake of Allah".

Herewith my promise to my husband:INSHA ALLAH

• I want to be your fairy in paradise. So I will try my best to be a pious wife.
• I will always love you for the sake of Allah, until return to Allah.
• I will be your loyal follower, due to you are my Imam
• I will be your the sweetest, prettiest, sexiest lady in the world for you. So you'll always counting times to go home.
• I will be good cheef to cook your favourite, till you have no reasons to have dine outside.
• I will be your best partner to share.
• I'll be supermom for our kids.
• I'll stand by you in sadness and happiness.
• I'll be your the only beloved to pass through the time to get Allah's blessings.
• I'll keep silent when you angry.
• I'll let you know when I dislike your attitudes, remind you to keep strive in Allah's path.
• I'll wake u up for qiyamul lail (tahajud) and shaum.
• bla.....bla....bla......

Is there anything else that should I do for you my beloved husband??? If yes. Please let me know! Insha Allah, I'll do as long is allowed in Islam.

But please dont hurt me by doing POLYGAMY.

*** To my husband: Luv you,

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Prayers

Imam Ja'far as-Sadiq (a.s.) says: When a person intends to send a proposal for marriage, he must pray two Rakat prayers, praise Allah and recite the following invocation:

Transliteration:

Bismillah hir Rah'maanir Rah'eem.
Allaahumma inni oreedo an atazawwaja faqaddirli minannisaa-e- a-'affahunna farjawn wa ah'faz'ahunna li fi nafseha wa maali wa aw sa-a'-hunna li rizqan wa a'-z'amahunna li barakatan fi nafseha wa maali anna atroko faqaddirli minha waladan t'ayyaban taj-a'lahu khalafan s'aaleh'an fi h'ayaati wa ba'da mauti.

Translation:

In the name of Allah the Beneficent, the Merciful.
O Allah! I intend to marry. Therefore destine for me the most chaste of women and one who would, for my sake, guard herself and my property. Who shall be most auspicious for increase in sustenance and bounties. Then from her womb bestow a pure son who would be my sweet reminiscence in my life and after my death.

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SCHEDULE's 2007

As usual when the new year begins. I make draft of my targets for this year. I believe that You are what you think all day long

If last year I was so passions to reach my worldly dreams. This year I'll be wiser than before. I have reached many joyful dreams. Now time to thinking my life for hereafter. I'm starting to thinking if death is better than live (but useless), I prefer to die in young age. Obviously, death due to destiny not 'suicide'. What for live if we are useless for our deen and other people. Here are my targets:

1. Start new life to build Sakinah & Mawaddah family.
2. I want to be good wife and follower for my Imaam.
3. I want to be BETTER MOSLEMAH.
4. May 2007 Resign from my job and start my own business. I need money to maintain my charity. If I have no money, how should I give 'them'?
5. Continue School.
6. Go INTERNATIONAL
7. Income at least Rp 20,000,000 per month. Insha Allah, this year will be 1st installment of 2008 pilgrimage to Mecca for my parents.
8. 'Surat Cinta Saiful Malook' will be printed for revision.
9. 'Surat Cinta Saiful Malook' translation in English or Urdu.
10. My next novel will born before Middle of year 2007.
11. Qurban 'cow'
12. Restore small Masjid in my parent's hometown.
13. Pregnant.

At last but not least.........Wallahi, I just want to be a good wife & follower for my lovely Imaam. And being Supermom who has my own money. Ya Allah, please grant my duaa.

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Good luck my lovely Babeh........

Again, BDU has lost the best actor. After Mr. Hafiz Pahlevi now Mr. Armand Karim (Babeh). Well, after we lost our soul...........now we are really lose our spirit. No more:

• Smiley handsome face who always says 'thank you' to everybody.
• funky boss who always wear 'ADIDAS' blue rubber bracelet.
• Unkempt boss who wear sporty dress-code in office (could u imagine a General Manager wore that?)
• kind and generous boss who always pay attention for a little thing to care his team.
• Go home before office dismissal.
• lovely saying in the phone, "Ris...............gak ada apa-apa kan?" or "sip-sip" or "sami-sami"
• unlimited encouraging even for something stupid outrageus.
• someone in GM room, who come earlier in the morning and order 'bubur ayam' an dstart chatting to me.
• Nissan X-trail B 8135 OS who dropped me to Blok M or dropped BDU's team to somewhere else.
• stupid talking about JEWS, ZIONISM, FREE-MANSORY.......or just complained about office political, governmeent policy or.......just chit-chat by Yahoo Messenger.
• Lunch on ROUND TABLE while having conversation.
• Questions, "What does Tini need?" (Tini is our office girl)
• BDU's hang out
• His crispy laughing
• Secreet conversation with Mr. Thomas
• Book's discussion
• leave
• bla..........bla........bla................

And so many pretty memories in BDU that I'll never forget. No separation without meeting. Well down Babeh!!! Wish you all the best there! Never forget our memeories in BDU. We'll miss you........

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BAHASA INDONESIA

Indonesian (Bahasa Indonesia) is the official language of Indonesia. Indonesian is a standardized dialect of the Malay Language that was officially defined with the declaration of Indonesian independence in 1945, and the two languages remain quite similar.

The language is spoken fluently as a 2nd language by most Indonesians, who use a regional language (examples are Minangkabau and Javanese) at home and in their local community. Most formal education, as well as nearly all national media and other communication, are in Indonesian. In East Timor, Indonesian is recognized by the constitution as one of the two working languages (the other is English).

The Indonesian name for the language is Bahasa Indonesia (literally language of Indonesia); this name is sometimes used in English as well. The language is sometimes called "Bahasa" by English-speakers, though this simply means "language" in Indonesian.

History

Indonesian is a normative form of the Malay Language, an Austronesian (or Malayo-Polinesian) language which had been used as a lingua franca in the Indonesian archipelago for centuries, and was elevated to the status of official language with the Indonesian declaration of independence in 1945, drawing inspiration from the Sumpah Pemuda(Youth's Oath) event in 1928. It is very similar to the official Malaysian form of the language. However it does differ from the Malaysian form in some ways, with differences in pronunciation and also in vocabulary, due in large part to the many Dutch and Javanese words in the Indonesian vocabulary.

It is spoken as a mother tongue by only 7% of the population of Indonesia (mainly in the vicinity of Jakarta), but altogether more than 200 million people speak it, with varying degrees of proficiency. It is an essential means of communication in a region with more than 300 native languages, used for business and administrative purposes, at all levels of education and in all mass media.

However, most native Indonesian speakers would admit that the standard correct version of the language is hardly ever used in a normal daily conversation. One can read standard correct Indonesian in books and newspaper, or listen to it when watching the news on television, but few native Indonesian speakers use formally correct language in their daily conversations. While this is a phenomenon common to most languages in the world (for example, spoken English does not always correspond to written standards), the degree of "correctness" of spoken Indonesian (in terms of grammar and vocabulary) by comparison to its written form is noticeably low. This is mostly due to the fact that most Indonesians tend to mix aspects of their own local dialects (Javanese, Sundanese, Balinese, and even Chinese) with Indonesian when speaking, which results in the creation of various types of accented Indonesian, the very types that a foreigner is most likely to hear upon arriving in any Indonesian city or town. This phenomenon is exacerbated by the use of slang, particularly in the cities. A classic example of a speaker of accented Indonesian is former president Soeharto, whose Javanese dialect came through whenever he delivered a speech.

The Dutch colonization left an imprint on the language that can be seen in words such as polisi (police), kualitas (quality), konfrontasi (confrontation), kopi (coffee), rokok (cigarette), kantor (office), and resleting (zipper). There are also some words derived from Portuguese (sabun, soap; meja, table; jendela, window; and gereja, church), Chinese(pisau (匕首), knife or dagger; loteng, [upper] floor), Hindi(kaca, mirror) and from Arabic (khusus, special; maaf, sorry; selamat ..., a greeting; kursi, chair). There are also words derived from Javanese(aku, I (informal), and its derivative form mengaku, confess).

Vocabulary

Indonesian as a modern dialect of Malay has borrowed heavily from many languages, including : Sanskrit, Arabic, Persian, Portuguese, Dutch, Chinese and many other languages, including other Austronesian languages. It is estimated that there are some 750 Sanskrit loanwords in modern Indonesian, 1,000 Arabic (Persian and some Hebrew) ones, some 125 Portuguese (also Spanish and Italian) ones and a staggering number of some 10,000 loanwords from Dutch.The latter also comprises many words from other European languages, which came via Dutch, the so-called "International Vocabulary". The vast majority of Indonesian words, however, come from the root lexical stock of its Austronesian heritage.

Although Hinduism and Budhism are no longer the major religions of Indonesia, Sanskrit which was the language vehicle for these religions, is still held in high esteem and is comparable with the status of Latin in English and other West European languages. Residents of Bali and Java tend to be particularly proud of the Hindu-Buddhist heritage. Sanskrit is also the main source for neologism. These are usually formed from Sanskrit roots. The loanwords from Sanskrit cover many aspects of religion, art and everyday lives. The Sanskrit influence came from contacts with India long ago before Christ. The words are either directly borrowed from India or with the intermediary of the Old Javanese language. In the classical language of Java, Old Javanese, the number of Sanskrit loanwords is far greater. The Old Javanese — English dictionary by prof. P.J. Zoetmulder, S.J.(1982) contains no fewer than 25,500 entries. Almost half are Sanskrit loanwords. Unlike other loanwords, Sanskrit loanwords have entered the basic vocabulary of Indonesian, so by many these aren't felt as foreign anymore.

The loanwords from Arabic are mainly concerned with religion, in particular with Islam, as can be expected. Allah is the word for God even in Christian Bibletranslations. Many early Bible translators, when they came across some unusual Hebrew words or proper names, used the Arabic cognates. In the newer translations this practice is discontinued. They now turn to Greek names or use the original Hebrew Word. For example, the name Jesus was initially translated as 'Isa, but is now spelt as Yesus. Psalms used to be translated as Zabur, the Arabic name, but now it is called Mazmur which corresponds more with Hebrew.

The Portuguese loans are common words, which were mainly, connected with articles the early European traders and explorers brought to Southeast Asia. The Portuguese were among the first westerners who sailed east to the "Spice Islands".

The Chinese loanwords are usually concerned with cuisine, trade or often just exclusively things Chinese. There is a considerable Chinese presence in the whole of Southeast Asia. According to the Indonesian government, the relative number of people of Chinese descent in Indonesia is only 3.5%. Whether this is true or not is still a matter of debate, many think the number is much higher. But what is sure is that in urban centres the number can be as high as between 10–25%.

The former colonial power, the Netherlands, left an impressive vocabulary. These Dutch loanwords, and also from other non Italo-Iberian, European languages loanwords which came via Dutch, cover all aspects of life. Some Dutch loanwords, having clusters of several consonants, pose difficulties to speakers of Indonesian. This problem is usually solved by insertion of the schwa. For example Dutch schroef ['sxruf]=> sekrup [sə'krup].

As modern Indonesian draws many of its words from foreign sources, there are many synonims. For example, Indonesian has three words for "book", i.e. pustaka (from Sanskrit), kitab (from Arabic) and buku (from Dutch). These words have, as can be expected, slightly different meanings. A pustaka is often connected with ancient wisdom or sometimes with esoteric knowledge. A derived form, perpustakaan means a library. A kitab is usually a religious scripture or a book containing moral guidances. The Indonesian words for the Bible are Alkitab and Injil, both directly derived from Arabic. The book containing the penal code is also called the kitab. Buku is the most common word for books.

In addition to those above, there are also direct borrowings from various languages in the world, such as "karaoke" from Japanese, and "modem" from English.

“Sepatu” = shoes is derived from Spanish word “ZAPATOS” for the same meaning. Other simple words are “Gratis”=free of charge from Gratis. “Matimatika”= Math from Matimaticas, “Fisika”=Physics from Fisica.

***taken from many sources especially GOOGLE

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My Cocktail Personality:

How to make a Risma Budiyani
Ingredients:

1 part success

3 parts humour

1 part energy

Method:

Combine in a tall glass half filled with crushed ice. Add wisdom to taste! Do not overindulge!

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Check the picture carefully! The Pertamina's fire lick in Lapindo (Surabaya) formed Allah's Arabic Writing and the sea horse (Pertamina's old symbol)

It happened after Pertamina's gas pipes in Jalan Tol Porong-Gempol exploded 22th November 2006.The location was in LAPINDO's Mud DISASTER.

SUBHANALLAH!!!

It was untouched picture. Trust it! Check it out www.detiknews.com

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INFLUENZA

Rainy season has been coming........
It means time to Influenza virus.
Its been 4th day, I have badly influenza this year.
Yah...time to pray as much as possible.

Allah will listen a truly 'dua' from us when we are in bad condition.
AMEEN.........
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Surat Cinta Saiful Malook ROCK THE WORLD

Since the first launching of fabulous novel ‘Surat Cinta Saiful Malook’ (SCSM) at the end of April on the market. Then unintended promotions from GATRA magazine, AVT Pushto Channel, Metro TV. Suddenly my novel become booming. In fact we’ve never held ‘big launching events’ to introduce it. The introduction only by small event in Pakistan Embassy School, mouth to mouth, www.escaeva.com, etc.

Honestly, I’ve never imagined it will become ‘sensational’ and well-known. I thought, who’ll buy a true story novel about love from a Risma Budiyani? I was not a celeb or a famous author. I thought people would passed my book and prefer to choose novel from famous author such as Dee, Ayu Utami, Djenar Maesa Ayu, Ninit Yunita, etc. Or book from celeb such as Tamara Geraldine, Rieke Dyah Pitaloka, dll. I could imagine, they would asked by themselves, “What the hell is Risma Budiyani?”.

Suddenly, I got so many sympathies from my reader, by sms, phone, or by email. Not only readers who stayed in Indonesia but also from outsider (Malaysia, Egypt, Singapore, Pakistan, etc). Behind, I know that some of Indonesian stores in abroad sell my novel. I didn’t know how could they got my contact number? After talked to them, I knew that they tried hard to get mine. Some of them got from escaeva (my publisher), contacted Mr. Didik (my editor), contacted Metro TV (Breakfast Club team), got from my friends, and remains people didn’t want to let me know from whom they got my contact number.

The contents of SMS, phone-talking, email are various;
Most of them asked, “Was it really yours?”
“When will the version in English and Urdu be launched?”Some of them asked, “How’s Saiful Malook’s condition now? “
“Do you regret your love story?”
“Do you still sad?”
“Do you still in love with Saiful Malook?”
“Will you marry him, supposing that He recovers from madness and comes here?”
“Do you have any boyfriend?”
“Have you married?”
or the just wanted to share their experience with cyber love or their expatriates lovers. Or just wanted to know my next book.
Or just told their touched experienced when read my novel. They cried a lot, even they are males.
And bla…..bla…bla…

Honestly, I have told to them for many times that as an author I had to combine experiences, knowledge, and imaginations to build good story. Although, most of live witnesses claimed that it was really mine. But, I told you. It was a novel not an autobiography of a famous girl.

It was become ridiculous when some readers asked me about my feeling to Saiful Malook now. And blamed my self, why should I left him now? after all that has happened. After so many struggles and efforts which I’ve done. Why should I love somebody else now? And then they said that ‘I’M THE LOSER’ , ‘THE LOVE’s CRIMINAL’, etc.

I could catch, what was on their mind. That they tried to expressed, “How could I left Saiful Malook in the darkness alone? Why don’t I accompany his days in Mental Hospital? Why don’t you wait him and marry him?”

WHAT?!?

“Am I wrong when I tried to get up by collecting pieces of the life that had been destroyed? Am I sinful if I try hard to love somebody else? “

I was not a Juliet who suicide by poison for her truly love Romeo, I was not Layla for her truly love Qays ‘Majnun’ or I was not Engtay who prefer to suicide to prove her deadly love to Sampek. I was only Jasmine ‘Badri Jamala’ for her Saiful Malook. May be Kooh-E-Kaf was not in Jakarta or Pakistan but in ‘nirwana’ (=Paradise).

Why don’t you think, what kind of Saiful Malook was he? How could he disappeared and gone with the wind when I needed him to accompany me? Why should He ran away from life issues? Why He failed to pass his own issues, in fact the future will be more challenging than past or now.

So please, if you asking me why I choose my own way? It doesn’t mean I try to avoid my past? I try to forget all Or I try to regret my past.

If I need to being honestly here. I’ve never regretted my life. Why should I regretted my fabulous life? If I’ve never met and separated to Saiful Malook, I would never recognized the Ambassador, I’d never made undergraduate theses about Pakistan, This novel never born, SBY would never recognized me, etc.

Saiful Malook only an episodes of my life. And I have to move to next episodes. And striving to go success for next step.

Thanks to Saiful Malook, my family, Pakistan, IPB, Escaeva, Samudera Indonesia, and all people who has inspired me a lot regarding this novel.
Special thanks to readers of SCSM around the world and some bloggers who wrote something nice about SCSM.
I LOVE YOU ALL,
I’ll never regret this episodes of life. It’s a wonderful life…

Insha Allah, SCSM will satisfy all of by English and Urdu version soon. Pray for us!

Love Jasmine
***YOU ARE WHAT YOU THINK ALL DAY LONG! KHAWAB SUCHA HOJAIGA!***

P.S. Woy...!Itukan cuma novel, jangan dibuat serius lah! Jasmine bisa stress nanti. Hehehe...btw thanks alot yah.
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Suddenly, I miss BDU

Alone and lonely will be always accompany me nowadays.
Even in office.
I lost my happy days in BDU.
One by one of my friends will go with the wind.

Started from the deadly emptiness on last 7th month.
I could catched how the spirit had gone with the wind.
No wonder, if we prefer to having fun together.
Used a day on a week to go somewhere.
Hang out.......

I remember how crazy we were,
When we decided spontaneusly to having fun on DUFAN Ancol(=Fantasy World).
Wuahahahah........I could believe finally we went there.
It was fun.
Tried to forget the depression by laughing and shouting as load as possible.
Forget all all misserable in the office.

How could?

Seemed indoor activity such as bowling or eating not enough.
So we chose DUFAN.

I still remember, how we queued patiently to enter 'Planet' games.
Wuahahah........an hour only paid by 15 minutes shooting games.
But it was okey, as long we could laugh together.

Now, everything has gone with the wind.
I'll never rewind the happy time records.
Every episodes has its own period.
And the period of BDU has over.

After Mr. Hafiz, now turn Babeh Armand.......
Then???

The reasons why I keep staying here is:
I LOVE THIS PLACE
I LOVE THE PEOPLE INSIDE
I LOVE THE SPIRIT
I LOVE THE DREAM
I LOVE THE TOGETHERNESS
ETC

Someday when has come my turn to get out.
I'll go with the key of my next dream.

I consider this is as part of my wonderful life episodes.
The SURAT CINTA SAIFUL MALOOK will never born, If I've never been here.

I still believe its one of ALLAH's plans for me.

About the reasons why I chose this as my 1st step after graduate? I just followed the life game. As a fresh graduated I applied to many companies by Jobsdb. Even I forgot what have I applied. JUst applied and waited. And Mr. Thomas called me. Honestly I hadnt heard it before. They only offered as internship. Hem........

While I was also in another recruitment process. As a fresh graduated ofcourse I prefer to work in another company which offered me fixed status and higher income. But, I followed my heart. I did what my mom said, "Choose with feeling. Dont judge from its money only".

When I asked also to my baba Mustafa (Ambassador of Pakistan who was written my preface), He also suggested me to take SAMUDERA INDONESIA. Well........I had no doubt. I took the chance to get involved with BDU SIG team.

Could you imagine what I got??? Allah shower me blessings with a nice environtment, nice boss, nice job, nice co-worker, nice spirit. And I could get another dreams. And.........and..........and....... I will never regreet I've been here.

I LOVE BDU. I LOVE SIG........

When my episodes here is over. No worries for me, because Allah has prepared better plans.

P.S. YOU ARE WHAT YOU THINK ALL DAY LONG
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Letter for My Husband

وَإِنْ خِفْتُمْ أَلاَّ تُقْسِطُواْ فِي الْيَتَامَى فَانكِحُواْ مَا طَابَ لَكُم مِّنَ النِّسَاء مَثْنَى وَثُلاَثَ وَرُبَاعَ فَإِنْ خِفْتُم
أَلاَّ تَعْدِلُواْ فَوَاحِدَةً أَوْ مَا مَلَكَتْ أَيْمَانُكُمْ ذَلِكَ أَدْنَى أَلاَّ تَعُولُواْ

[An Nisa 4:3] And if you fear that you cannot act equitably towards orphans, then marry such women as seem good to you, two and three and four; but if you fear that you will not do justice (between them), then (marry) only one or what your right hands possess; this is more proper, that you may not deviate from the right course.

وَلَن تَسْتَطِيعُواْ أَن تَعْدِلُواْ بَيْنَ النِّسَاء وَلَوْ حَرَصْتُمْ فَلاَ تَمِيلُواْ كُلَّ الْمَيْلِ فَتَذَرُوهَا كَالْمُعَلَّقَةِ وَإِن تُصْلِحُواْ وَتَتَّقُواْ فَإِنَّ اللّهَ كَانَ غَفُورًا رَّحِيمًا
[An Nisa 4:129] And you have it not in your power to do justice between wives, even though you may wish (it), but be not disinclined (from one) with total disinclination, so that you leave her as it were in suspense; and if you effect a reconciliation and guard (against evil), then surely Allah is Forgiving, Merciful.

Oh my beloved husband, I love you for the sake of Allah.
Insha Allah, I'll always stand by you a hole of my life.
Until we return to Allah.
We'll be always together in happiness or sadness.
Together build our lovely family with our kids.
See our kids grown up.

Beloved, please let me know, when I fall down!
Please advise me if I dont satisfy you.
Please let me know!
And I'll improve myself to satisfy you for the sake of Allah.

Supposing that, in our sestiny has written that we are not longer together.
Insha Allah, I'll try to accept it as my destiny.
If you want to do polygamy, please let me know!
Let discuss it together.
I dont want to ignore the truth that our religion declared.

You may marry, if only:

***I'm infertile (na'udzubillahi min dzalik)
Yeah I know, I'll be okey with this reasons. But I think, it will hard for me to see you happy with your new baby who born from other woman. While I lost my confidence due to I'm infertile. MY beloved husband, may I ask divorce from you?

***I'm frigid (na'udzubillahi min dzalik)
Yeah I know, you have manly needs that urgently to fulfil. If I close my eyes about my weakness it means I dont care If you getting closer to ZINAH. Oh my beloved husband you may marry due to this. I'll be okey.
But wait........I think I cant see you live happyly with other woman. How could I see you making romance with her?
Mmmhhh, may I ask divorce from you?


But I'll help you to choose women, if you really want to do sunnah as Rasulullah did. I'll totally support you. I want to be your fairy in Jannah (=paradise). Let me choose your next wife according to Sunnah Rasul:

Do you still remember Mak Minah? Our neighbor. She is an 69 years old widow. No kids. She is living alone, no family beside her. And her husband has passed away since 20 years ago. She works as maid to fulfill her daily needs. How a pity Mak Minah. She has to pass her old day by working hard. Would you mind if She's being a part of our lovely family? Would you marry here? I'll be okey if she is being your 2nd wife. So I will have a friend when you are far away from house.

Or Pok Ponijem who lives not far from our street. She is 50 yrs old. A widow with 10 kids. She would prefer to divorce with her husband than converted her Islam to her husband new religion. She prefer to live along with her kids only. As long they still in Islam, she doesnt care with anything. She is a trully moslemah who hardly strugle for her religion. She can work anything as long its halaal and her family can continue live. Oh, how tremendous is she?
Beloved, would you marry her? She's be our partner to build a sakinah family. We can rent house for her and her kids. Or may be they can live in our big house. Oh...

Or may be Cut Meena, a newly comer on this area. Her husband died in Aceh, He was killed by separatism gangster. Cut Meena now is living along with her son. All of her family in Aceh died due to Tsunami. She has 7yrs old boy. She is a woman with softly heart. She is a pious moslemah. Yeah, because She was Quran theacher in Aceh. Her age still 42 yrs old (I'm 24 yrs old). Beloved, would you marry her???

Beloved, can choose one of them to be your next wife, I mean 2nd wife. But, If you really want to do polygamy as Rasulullah did. I'll be okey if you marry all of them. Mak Minan as 2nd wife, Pok Ponijem as 3rd wife and Cut Meena as 4th wife. ANd I'm as 1st wife. Hows that?

Insya Allah we'll meet again in Jannah. Ameen
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POLYGAMI

وَإِنْ خِفْتُمْ أَلاَّ تُقْسِطُواْ فِي الْيَتَامَى فَانكِحُواْ مَا طَابَ لَكُم مِّنَ النِّسَاء مَثْنَى وَثُلاَثَ وَرُبَاعَ فَإِنْ خِفْتُمْ أَلاَّ تَعْدِلُواْ فَوَاحِدَةً أَوْ مَا مَلَكَتْ أَيْمَانُكُمْ ذَلِكَ أَدْنَى أَلاَّ تَعُولُواْ
[An Nisa 4:3] And if you fear that you cannot act equitably towards orphans, then marry such women as seem good to you, two and three and four; but if you fear that you will not do justice (between them), then (marry) only one or what your right hands possess; this is more proper, that you may not deviate from the right course.

وَلَن تَسْتَطِيعُواْ أَن تَعْدِلُواْ بَيْنَ النِّسَاء وَلَوْ حَرَصْتُمْ فَلاَ تَمِيلُواْ كُلَّ الْمَيْلِ فَتَذَرُوهَا كَالْمُعَلَّقَةِ وَإِن تُصْلِحُواْ وَتَتَّقُواْ فَإِنَّ اللّهَ كَانَ غَفُورًا رَّحِيمًا
[An Nisa 4:129] And you have it not in your power to do justice between wives, even though you may wish (it), but be not disinclined (from one) with total disinclination, so that you leave her as it were in suspense; and if you effect a reconciliation and guard (against evil), then surely Allah is Forgiving, Merciful.

I didnt see ayah that facilitate or motivate a man to do polygamy. If they understood what that ayah said, they will thinking thousand times to do Polygamy. Why? Because, noone can be fair.

Strangely, this ayah became the "right to be full of the" man" to do polygamy.
They claimed, the action to follow sunah the Prophet Muhammad SAW. became ridiculous when the practice of polygamy was in fact used as the Islamic benchmark: increasingly active polygamy was regarded as increasingly good position of his piety.
Or, increasingly patient a wife received destiny as the 1st wife equal to increasingly good the quality of his faith.

The prophet of Mohammad didnt do polygamy when He married with Khadeeja. Later, The prophet of Mohammad married with Aisyah (the only virgin's wife that Rasulullah had). When He married with Aisya He did Polygamy with old widow women who had kids. Rasulullah did that because He wanted to kept their honor and deen, not only to fulfil His manly needs. He married them for the sake of Allah.

If He married only for 'fun' why should He married with older women?

Think about that!

But what happen now? A man do polygamy by hurting his 1st wife? Why hurt? Because He marry with a younger, more attractive than his 1st wife.

Hi men!!! If you really want to complete your deen by follows Sunnah Rasul. You should do it totally! If you want to do Polygamy according to sunnah as Rasulullah did, just married with old widow women with many kids who need your attentions.
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Bunga Desember : Haemanthus multiflorus (Tratt.) Martyn.

Bunga Desember or Blood Lily or Haemanthus multiflorus (Tratt.) Martyn. is one of rare's plant in the world.



According to its name BUNGA DESEMBER. Bunga = flower, Desember = December. This flower only blossoms on December. At the End of November, its ready to blossom. And Tarram........here the blood lily. I love this flower. My mom planted it with love. In my region, my mom the only one who has 'BUNGA DESEMBER'. We proud of it. My mom got it from some forest in my mom hometown PURWOREJO. Here I will give all of you some information regarding this flower:

Classification:
Division---Spermatophyta
Subdivision---Angiospermae
Class---Monocotyledoneae
Ordo---Liliales
Genus---Amaryllidaceae
Species---Haemanthus multiflorus (tratt.) Martyn

Known Name: Bunga Desember or Blood Lily

The usefullnes:

***Can be used for burn injury. How to use?
1. Wash Fresh bulb of Haemanthus multiflorus
2. Grate it
3. Stuck in the injury part

Chemistry Contains:

*** Leaf, flower, and the bulbs of Haemanthus multiflorus contains of saponin and flavonoida.
*** Leaf also contains of polifenol


Do you have this fabulous flower?
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My Secreet Dua....

Ya Allah, Please forgive me!
Dont let me go ashtray! Guide me!!!
Thans for this beautiful life.
Thanks for unforgetable moments.

I know how sinful Iam.
I know I'm unworthy to beg you something to you.
But I dont know where should I share?
To whom I should beg?
You are the only one who never ignore me.
So I come to you.

You know how I miss my Islamic Marriage.
How I miss a man who can be Imam in my life.
How I miss sweet time with a pious man.
How I miss the time with my own kids.
How I miss being a pious moslemah who'll always stand by with my husband and kids.

How I'm afraid getting involved with unlawful affairs.
Love affairs without marriage.
I'm afraid.....

I know you've created love inside my heart.
But I'm scared its not the love for your pleasure.
I'm afraid.......

Ya Allah, if he's not the man on my destiny.
Please take all love's feeling in my heart.
I dont want my love to him, replace my trully love to you.

Ya Allah, if my destiny hasnt written about a companion of life,
Please take me away from these topsy-turvy life.
Dont let me love someone who's not mine.

I know whatever that you give to me is the most wonderful,
The best that I've ever have.

I beg to you, let me out from these.
Dont let my mind busy with 'something stupid'

Please.......!

I want to go.
I dont want just hoping.

What will be the next episodes of mine?
What?
I'm waiting.
I 'm sure you've prepared some ways out.

Please extend my age if in my remain ages will be useful for people and Islam
If my remain ages will not useful, please let me die young.
Better die young when I'm still in high spirit with Islam
Than long life, but I just add my sins
Ameen........Ameen........Ya Rabbal A'lamien
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The meaning of My Name Part 2: RISMA BUDIYANI

The girl's name risma is of Greek origin, and its meaning is "blessing." Originally referred to the spiritual gifts bestowed by the Holy Spirit on the apostles.


Budi in Javanese Language means of Kind, Kindness

Yani was taken from Urdu word 'Jaanan, Jaani' which means of Dear, as Loving as Life

So the means of RISMA BUDIYANI is A lovely kind girl who can be blessings for all people

Hem.............nice transliteration. What do you think?
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